hi...today i woke up wid half a smile..yesterday was such a bad day for me..came back home wid no mood at all to do anything. was so so moody dun noe for wat bloody reasons..but yupz i was so moody...mayb too stress wid lots of stuffs..got so many tings running hay wire in my head,could not solve anything..trying damn hard to stop tinking but it juz wun stop..gaya called, huda called to talk but was not in e mood to talk..i may juz roar if i get too fed up..he was trying to cheer me up but it was not working out tat well...thnx anyway..i guess i was so tired..tat i appear to be moody..

den slept on empty stomach..was crying my heart out b4 sleeping..juz felt like crying..cried for no reasons..i juz need to cry n ease myself..i tot i will wake up wid a smile the next day. cry n cry n cry until my eyes were so bloated...but none of my loved ones knew abt it..its beta like tat coz if they noe, they will interrogate me..i tink i juz need to give time to certain stuffs..let nature takes it course i guess...went to sleep after a while...

supposed to go for training today but didnt..my limbs n brain too tired..so i did training on my bed..hahah...den went out to study wid my frens n had some sort of reunion wid my sec frens. haha..fun la..they cms to change while me remains the same. today was not a bad day totally..did enjoyed myself but returned home wid sum sadness..i guess happiness wun juz stick for long..we usually tink of sadness den happiness coz it juz takes time for wounds to recover..by the time they heal, we r faced wid another one.so it is difficult la..hah...wat the hell m i blabberin abt? siao..

haha..i m so happy for arjuna..he is going to america for sum competition..n he bothered to call me to tell me..so happy..den he asked me if he can get anything for me from there..haha...i juz wan him to enjoy himself n make new frens..he juz need encouragements to live life to e fullest..haha...sabby being the counsellor other than love expert..wth...hahha...

ok gtg...need do bio online..see ya tml..if i wan la..haha...(:

helloo.....today went skol wid butterflies in my stomach...coz today need do flag raising...tats scary,trust me..i was so scared tat e flag would juz fall down..learnt from jenna how to raise den tie in onli few min...was ok la..den went on top the stage to face the pole...my hands were so cold..i really was damn damn scared..jenna gave encouragement la..thnx to her i DID it...haha..but i dun noe whether i raised it too fast or not la..but i hope it was ok..i saw him but i noe he will surely c me..whu neva see me in e hall..siao la me...

passed my POA test veri well for the first time..i damn happy but i was not feeling well at tat time..i juz kept quiet..either i was bored or i was juz feeling so sick..den went for geog when i didnt expect mr desmond to remember my name and shouted at me..hahah...siao...saw him den smiled..hahah as usual..i tink we onli have eye contact...neva talk la..haha beta also...hhahha...

went for PE when mr ram said smth n i was juz smiling at him..he wan us run around the tracks..siao rite..den he was looking at my reaction n gave me a cheeky smile..i was like GIVE ME A BREAK..hahha..teachers nowadays ah....make blood boil only..i tink tats their motive in life..hahah...EVIL sab...hahha...

noe wad? i took tis 985 bus at 6 n waited for 1 hour in the bus to get home..the bus was moving so slow..beta dun move la..i tink cow can walk faster la..hahha....damn got squeezed in bus 5...wowowowo...fun se...was laughing all e way wid darwy, mala n fiza...i m sorry grace..i m suppposd to wait wid u but i tot today can go home early to rest but instead caught up in the jam..wat only la..today i wrote smth like a journal tingy to my malay teacher...its abt my life la..hope i didnt get tat personal..den i m sorry to mulan for shouting e guy's name..sorry...

is today a apologising day? its ok..it doesnt make a person small by asking for forgiveness...hahha..sorry...ok la..i wan sleep...damn tired..tml got bio n gp...haiz....tired...i wan rest...ok ppl of...wat ah..nvm..i wan go sleep...my eyes are not supportin me..ttatatattazzzz...nites.................u wan sweet dreams? ok la..i gd gal..sweet dreams..hahah...siao...(:

eeeeeeeeeesssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............................i HATE the WAY i m FEELING now!!!!!!!!! i m tired and i m sad for god noes y...................haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz................): can i have a new start or a new book of life? does tat mean tat i need die first?...................shitty la.....LETS GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WAN TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hhahah...helllloooo...today was fun day la..i showed my new winnie e pooh pencil boz to everyone..hahaha...i juz LOVED it la....really really CUTE...den went for e stupid PE lesson..i really tot tat i was going to die out of breath..coz we need to run n run run...did jumping, lots of push ups and sit ups..i really was on the verge of crying..but i did persevered till e end...i cannot give up coz i need pass my NAPHA.. however at tat time, i really hope sumone will juz faint so teacher will noe tat e exercise was strenous..hahaha...pity diana coz she was not supposed to join my group as she passed already but she suffered today wid ME..hahha..but e next lesson onwards i will be alone..sad sad..hahah...

Went for POA and had to sit for test 12..den mr tbt showed us his son's pic..hey not bad leh..quite gd looking..hahaha...den he called me to meet him..he asked me for the poor results i produced..i told him i did my corretions n revised my work but i still failed..den he got nth to say..guess he had no words to describe my stupidity..grace was not here n i felt so bored..haha she promised to play tennis wid me but she dumped me today..sobzzz...hahha...

came back home late due to writing my report abt gis n accompanied darwy..came back to find his msg in my phone..i tot its like no more..isnt it over? wth...when i decided to let go, e past will juz come back to fill me up again.y ah?? i m damn confused..i really hate tis...can i juz have a peace mind n forget abt everything? it has to always end up tis way...can i juz let it go? i tink can juz tat its difficult. hahah...even when i saw him,i juz gave it a glance tingy...i dun noe y but now its like...NOT OVER..hahha....its juz so funny...n my itchy hand juz took the phone to reply his msg? y cant i juz control n tis will help me let go? but i cannot do tis to a fren tat really helped me in my bad times rite..he is still my fren rite..hahah...

ok i juz dun wan tink abt it..i wan do my bio hmwk n have a nice rest wid sweet dreams..hahah...life is meant to enjoy but it cms tat i m destroying my joyness..hahh...ok la bb...c ya tml if i m still breathing hahha... loveya...(:

is it over??i dun noe..hahhaha.........wats over??hahaha...m i like writing in riddles? i m also not sure...but i really dun noe wats in my mind...tots running wild..telling myself to take tings one step at a time...hmmm..i tink i m bcuming emo now..or mayb i m juz taking stuffs so seriously...haiz..tis feelings is juz not nice la.. ok lets not talk abt it la..

ohk today had poa test..i failed one n passed e other one..mr tbt will juz be disappointed la..hmm...i juz need to buck up..i always say tat to myself but it juz didnt turn out e way i wan..actions speak louder than words..haiz...it was rainy today...i really wish to get drenched in e rain but could not afford to get ill..i juz wan the rain to take away all my sorrows n tears so i can start e next day wid a smile..haiz..but it juz didnt happen..tings r juz e opposite..den opened uo e presents fiza gave me..oh my..they r e lovely tings tat i really got..its of course Winnie e Pooh..haha..my favourite...haha..u will surely tink tat i m CHILDISH coz of those stuffs but i really LOVE Winnie e Pooh..so CUTE n ADORABLE..got pencil boz, den a pen wid winnie and t shirt wid winnie...everything winnie..hahah..tat juz made my day..really..thank u fiza...

but still once e happiness gone, e sorrows will slowly creep in juz to fill e space in my heart..hahha...ok..i m really being emo now..n i beta stop it coz it juz...i cannot describe it..have been talking wid my jae kids these few days..n it cms tat i m more immatured den them...hahah..i m smaller den them n they look like my seniors instead of me looking like their senior..hahha...they juz made me happy sum times..hahah..

ok la..i need do pw research...hahha...juz need to get over it la..ok bb..nitezzz.......sweet dreams...

wazzzzzzzzzaaaaaa..hahahh...today is the funniest, amazing, enriching, shiok day of tis week....i m so so HAPPY and always laughing...i also make ppl laugh...dun noe for wat reason..

so like the Best Comedian award will go to Ms Sabrina Banu..hahah..really not kidding..juz now went to Dover Parl Hospice for Cip..n trust me i really learn a lot from it..tis place is for those wid terminally incurable disease to pass their days wid love and care before they leave for the other world..when i heard tat, my hair all stand se..dun noe y..my heart was beating so fast n it was crying, i was damn sad listening to their plights. one day i may have to go thru it too..the minimum they will be there is 18 days while e maximum in abt 3 months. they dun even noe tat their door woll be knocked by death soon..they were juz waitin i guess..i m sure they have tat feeling la..haiz...i was so happy seeing them..when u sing them a song, den they enjoyed it n a SMIlE brightened their faces, my heart was popping out too in happiness.i felt like a satisfaction tat we really REALLY make them smile..i really really LOVED tat feeling..a smile from them made us sosososo ELATED...damn touched...

i onli remember sumthing the volunteer said..Death is Certain but the Timeof Death is Uncertain..it sounds true..we juz dun noe when our time will cum..haiz...i m juz tinking abt it..den came back to tink tat i must live life to e fullest n not take it for granted..i need show more care n concern to people..even if they r not my kins...they r still human beings. so i was so happy n was walking around wid a smile n made my classmates laugh n guess wat they said.."sab, before i died, i muz see u coz u will make me laugh..u so jovial!" so i m e one who can brightened up their day? hahhha..i hope i can..being happy is beta coz when ppl see u happy, they will be happy too..i dun noe..but tats Sabrina's Theory..haha...

den grace and i were confused if to go n eat wid frens or go back skol do GIS...so guess wat we chose..SKol..hahha studious...NO!!! i pity grace coz i need do write up so need use the laptop so she had to follow me..hmmm..thnx grace...den went to eat LUNCH wid mr saw...can u imagine? we were giggling all the way n he kept talking...was talking abt so many many tings..den he kept lookin eye to eye..y teachers love to have eye contact when talking..it was really awkward n uncomfortable. the 2 of them were lauging at my jokes..wats so funny..i also dun understand. den went back to skol to do my write up. den saw hafiz, zhi wei n my love rival, qiao ying...hahah..were talking n laughing..fun la..den were making fun of grace..hhaha..nice to make fun of her la..coz she is so VULNERABLE...hahah jk...den at last i said that she was stalking zhi wei coz she knew he had soccer today.hahah..actually hafiz told her la..so it was juz a joke..hahha..

den left at 4 to go to SLA for GIS..n whu we saw again...Guess? MR SAW!!!!!!!hahha...we were like having a dat ewid him la e whole day..hhahaha...he was going to accmpany us there wid ms huang..they r the fun n shiok teachers to b wid..can joke n laugh wid them..hahha..even in the taxi we were making fun n laughing. den after Gis went to train wid Mr Saw to go home..again wid him..but in the train we were sardined la..so crowded..can u imagine my back n the other woman back pressed together..wth..it was that close..haiz...i m always e unlucky one..n grace was laughing at me..haiz she tink i m really a clown la..laugh laugh n LAUGH...not tired..den we ate ice cream..it was soya bean flavour...Yummy..i luvin it..parapapapa...

den Home Sweet Home!!!!!!yeah..were talkin wid grace in the bus..den went home to listen to tis beautiful compliment" sabrina, u r so going to be a KING KONG...eat somemore la..den sleep!!!"
haiz..i guess they jealous tat i love food and they dun..humph...jealous ppl casting an evil eye on me abt food..shld put kaajal on me so i will not be cast evil eye..kaajal is like black eyeliner to put a dot on my body so to protect me..like amall baby ah..

but then i did realize tat i m really REALLY putting on weight..like nobody business...haiz need to lose la..haizz....so fat se...hahah...but i love food...how ah..i need control den..hahah..ok la..i gtg now...thnx for listening to my speech..i wan thank my mom, dad,hahahha..jk..

so gdnite guys...see ya tml..i need to revise on my timetable coz i have not been following it...atatatzzzz..nite nite...guess wat..i m chatting wid him..ahahhaha...happy se..its abt jesus...hahah..fun n interesting to know abt other religion i guess..haha nite nite..sweet dreams..happy gd friday in advance.. :)

today was e day tat i really dun wan go skol but forced myself out of the bed..too sleepy la..slept at 1am..so wat do u expect? missed bus 5 n need to wait for abt 10 mins den waited for gracey at 985 bus stop. when 985 came, we took it n i saw sumone whom grace did not notice.juz kept quiet and slept when sumthing woke me up..

"whoosh"the bus i took hit into another bus..wth..disturbed my sleep but luckily no casualities. SAFE!!! can u imagine it happened in e middle of the road and typical sporeans were honking...so den the bus stopped near the bus stop n we got to take another one..den grace got to c tat sumone..hahahha...smiling all e way..haiz..gals ah.. den we reached skol on time but still kena caught late..haizzz..wat a luck rite..den as usual dm was preaching non stop den suddenly he made a joke n i being the JOKER started laughing...hahhah....den he looked at me, eye contact as if got electricity hhahah..den he went back to PREACH...hahha..funny la..3 SCs late together from one class..power...den went back to class..

malay teacher was absent, den started revising POA..got test se..den went for PE..haiz...ran 3 rounds n did jumping..fun la...like kangaroo..hahah...den ate wid darwy, mala n muneera..went for art when muneera taught us abt Mona Hatoum..her life damn sad la..i c most artists got sad backgrounds..sad la..they express themselves thru art..cool la..i tinki shld do tat..after art, me, shiqeen, mala, diana n muneera went to study corner. we supposed to study but den started talking abt biology...u shld noe..hahah..funny la..sum innocent so we taught each other..

den went for poa..wowow luckily no test la..was looking thru sumpoa questions n i started dozing off..mr tbt saw la..luckily neva kena scold..so tired....den went for PW..need do sum matrix tingy..Pw so mafan...den got GIS meeting...

was talking wid grace abt joining tis chinese singing competition..we started singing den laughing at each other..keith was even laughing la..embarassing la..but i really wan le..but no one to accompany me..hahah..i will juz make a fool out of myself..den i saw him today at last going back home.juz smiled...den went eat wid grace...was having heart to heart talk..abt life n sumthing la.hhaha..den walked to bus stop..we were like dating la..hahhaa...den we saw tat sumone..

yeah!!"he is coming up!"i said.."NO!!!!!!" she said..i told her 3 times but dun wan listen..den when he came..she started laughin..siao la tat gal...face like tomato...hahha.."hello, wow ur file so thick!"hahah can u imagine she said tat..hahah cute la..i couldnt stop laughing so i looked outside to laugh..hahha..cannot take it la...so cute la my fren..alighted from the bus stop wid a GOODBYE..i forced her to..den me, a movie director, was narratin a story line to her but she started laughing..wat onli la she..my story damn nice la..after ppl watched my movie, they will say" DUN WATCH IT!" hahhaha...

walked home n saw a lot of stars...wowo if onli i can juz lie on the grass and admire the stars...wwowowo tats so so nice..n romantic if ur loved one beside u.. wowowo i can visualise it..oh my...fun ah...u r like sleeping wid a blanket full of stars...ok i tink today my story damn long la..got so much to talk le..hey i juz chat wid him online..haahha...funny se..i asked him joined chinese singing competition..he can do opera wat..but funny la.hahah...EVIL SAB!!!!!!!!hahhaha...ok la..

sabby needs to go...hahah....see ya e next day...anyway i tink i can get xue gongcan soon..yeah...

hellooo..today was another day but too restless to enjoy..hhhaha...was so tired..i dun noe y but the side effects of sat was still on la..today went for geog n was sitting beside my last yr enemy hhah rashid..he was being so random la..trying to create a conversation tat will not be continuous..i was laughing at him most of the time..hahha...lame rashid..hahah..den saw him in class but did not talk nor smile..it cms tat we have bcum strangers again...wowowow...den went for acc...wth i got 0 out of 10..i really expected it la..coz neva study..but did my hmwk le..mayb still dun understand la..haiz really need to buck up..i still in honeymoon mood la..

cannot get back to pace..haiz...haven do malay hmwk, revise for another poa test tml, and art..shitty la...so many tings n i still can write blog..hahah..ok la i will try upload pics..lets c if the blog will heed to my command...hahha...it juz seems tat i need to heed to the blog's command..humph..not fair la.. yesterday was e last episode of My Girl..sad se..sobzzz...i was crying...hahha...so touching..now i cannot c my Xue Gongcan la..hahha..gonna miss him..qiao ying is fighting wid me over him..wth....let me find new target den i will leave him..hahaa..he is not even mine la...hahahha..veri lazy to do hmwk...help me..hahha..ok la..

gtg now..need do hmwk like gd gal..which i m not one..so ttatazzz..see ya soon..

hellooo..yesterday was a veri veri Fun and memorable day for me and my family members..everything went smoothly.. we have a new family member..hhah...isnt tat fun? hahha..dun noe yet coz the effects have not started yet..hhah...sorry i really dun noe wat i m talking abt..

in the afternoon, it was so formal..people were juz looking and congratulating the couple. all of us were juz waiting for the nite to cum. as its going to be PARTY time..nach baliye(dancing)...at first the songs were so slow tat we were juz moving our bodies den the songs started to be fast..i guess the slow songs were a starter maybe a warm up songs..hahah..den we were juz enjoying ourselves la..jansher was so seducive..eeeuuuu...he came to me and dancing like wat...hahha but it was fun la..seducive but calm i guess..veri cute..hhaha...i shall dance wid him again..

den as usual we were camwhoring the whole time on the mandap. i dun noe wat its called in english. so fun..i shall upload the pics later..it really ended veri late n i got into bed at 3am.. damn damn tired but really had a fun day..haha..was really happy tat everything went smoothly..haiz..tml will be the start of a new term..really hope time will juz stop and i can juz continue having fun..skol? haiz..the tot really put me off..hahha...another 10 more weeks den june holidays..yeah...waiting for tat...ok den i will show u the pics we took..and also the one at Lower Pierce Reservoir...tats another paradise.but it cms tat e blog is not cooperating well wid me...

hhhheellloo..hahha...was tinking of sumth juz la..hmm it goes like tis..
My life...lead by me, not alone, but accompany by many..however suffer all alone..hhahah..is tat true? i also dun noe..but it cms true le..hhah...in juz a few hrs, tings will juz changed..haiz...in sum ways but not sure if its gd or not..dun wan talk abt it la..i have no idea how it will be in the future..hhaha...juz hope everything wil be fine..pls..

today was disturbed by sum bloody joker at 6am dun noe for sum bloody reasons..it juz made me fused..hahha..new word...den need go skol for consultation again but today mr imran was late..so had to revise alone until keith came to read on Gis..den went to leave wid keith when mr imran called to find me..haiz...he taught, taught n repeated again n again juz to make me understand la..pity but i really need to understand everything..he was even laughing at me la..wat onli..

den after bio, went for Gis..tired se..i nearly dozed off..my eyes were juz waiting to close..was msging him most of the time..den returned home early to get ready for a brand new day tml..haiz...is it really a brand new day? i have no damn idea but i juz wan it to turn out well..was still msging him, competing wid him for sum stupid stuffs..it was dumb la..i m growing dependent on him..which i dun wan..its reallly making me unsure of wat i wan..haiz...sux la..dun noe wat n whu to trust..i wan smth but i m losing everything..gosh..i m feeling so sick but im trying to hide it..i dun wan to lie to myself but looking at others smiling n beaming wid happiness, it shows tat i shld not show my unhappiness..i m bottling everyting up n no one noes..haizz....i juz wan be strong n accept everyting wid a smile even if i m sad..hahha..so emo se..its my first time i tink being emo..hahha...

it doesnt feel rite nor wrong..i m juz LOSt..i guess tats e rite word to use..ok la..stop being so emo la..it juz doesnt suit u..my inner self arguing wid me..okok..i tink i m juz bcuming so sick la..ok gtg..so guys, lead ur life in ur own way n decisions..dun follow others..it will juz bring u nowhere..trust me..hahha..

ok signing off...tatazzz....

hellooo..today was juz another page of my life...hmm today didnt do much quality stuffs...went to skol for consultation wid mr imran...damn scary coz he likes to look direclty into e eyes but i kept looking away..eessshhhhhh...den went to sum art session wid tis moe guy..was laughing at myself coz i really have no answer to respond to his questions so kept sayin..'tats wat i wanted to say'..hahha..tat moe person is ok la..hahha..fun n interesting...got a few tips from him la..managed to talk to him..den i was tinking if i really have true feelings for him or not..its juz tat i wan concentrate on my studies..but sumtimes its so difficult..let me try doing smth to curb tis..haizz...life ah..

den went for gis...were cracking our head abt using it but still have no idea so intend to read into it today..was msging him the whole time..wad was i trying to do? m i really going after him? gosh i really need to stop la..haiz...its juz tat i dun wan to be dependent n i dun wan him to feel tat i m a nuisance.but i felt so restless if neva talk le..wat the hell...need do smth abt tis..got so many problems to rectify i guess hahaha..haizz...sigh...

den went to tekka to find clothes for the wedding tis sat..wat a problem got so many to choose but in e end, made the rite n final choise..whoosh...a relief..hahha..i hate shopping la..it juz wun work out for me...hahha...the whole week is being spent in skol..so tml still got consultation n gis..haiz..life vicious se..hahhaha...

ok la i gtg now..i haven bath la..den straight away on the com to write tis blog..hahah....see ya tml..if got anything to write la..hahah...gdnite...

helllozzzzzzzzz........today ...hmmm its a long day..didnt go to skol..was so TIRED tat i slept till 12 in the afternoon..den woke up juz to find food...as usual..my routine..hahhah...den wrote e cheque books for my step dad den did my portrait..haiz...i juz sux at tat la..but it did turn out well..i hope so..den went online to find information abt e presence of algae n e dissolved oxygen..quite interesting as there r so many kinds of algae..hahha so many names too...den msg him the whole time...damn stupid la but fun..hahahah..msg all kinds of stupid tings...its like the immatured gal talking wid a matured guy..hahah...do we click well? i dun noe..haha...

haiz den i pity him la coz he went all alone to jurong point,wanting to watch movie but den no one to watch wid..sad..so he had to go back home la...eesssshhhhhhhh sad rite...coz his frens willl be watching wid their gf and sumore he has SOVA tingy tml..sad..hahah..asked him watch tml but he dun wan..sadist...hahha...we r bcuming more like best frens la.hahha...

den i went to pasar malam..saw so many winnie the pooh..i really love it la..den bought my favorite food, SWEET CORN..yummy..i tink tis hols will make me gain weight instead of losing..hahah...nvm it is juz once in a while rite..hahah....

ok la..i need go hhahh..not much to write today..tml muz meet mr imran for biology consultation.den need meet sum MOE guy for SOVA den got geog..lastly got POA..ahahah..life is so vicious man..when will tis cycle ends?hhaha..ok see ya my babes.....i want to..hahah..i also dun noe le...hahha..ciaoz...

These are the pics i took at the Upper Pierce Reservoir.it was rainin at tat time.

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wazzzzzzzzzzzzap..hahha...today is another day we went to The reservoir but tis time we went to e Lower Pierce Reservoir..the scenery there was so nice la..so quiet la...veri veri peaceful..den me, ms hong, keith n handry went to take water samples from the canal. grace was supposed to take care of the flood gates..hahha sa la coz she is alone..kar yee ditched her hhahah..jk coz kar yee had smth on. den we went down to the canal..it was scary at first but i did it..den went up again to Bishan Park wid my poncho coz it was Drizzling...tis rain juz spoilt everything..hahah...den i was doing survey wid the residents till i came across tis construction indian guy..damn Damn scary..looking at me like one kind..gave me e creeps..siao..furthermore i was so ALONE..so i walked out but instead of walking outof the place, i m getting into e secluded areas...damn scared..he tried to follow me but i walked in n out of the places so he will lose me..luckily ms huang called out to me..if not sab u r DEAD i tink so..but i tink it was a veri fun n interesting ting to go thru but damn scary..hahha..

anyway playing wid the rain so fun la..ppl tink i cannot do anything fun alone..den keith me n ms huang waited for taxi..stupid there is no taxi la..waited like fools but den i did surveys at e bus stop too..den instead of taking taxi, we took bus den stopped sumwhere to take taxi again..as usual..taxi drivers will ask y do ppl go to MI(3 yrs) instead of poly which is also 3 yrs? its either they r curious or they r..nvm...

went back to skol to have a group outing at lestari..wowo e black pepper chicken chop..damn tender n juicy..i love it..but it was fun coz we went to eat as a group..talked a lot n we bonded as one group.shiok...den went back to skol to do sum experiments again..as usual...den have sum problems regarding it..trying to solve it but i tink we need do research abt it la..haiz...

my skol hols will onli be spent in skol la..sad sad..super sad..hahhaha...but i need buck up..damn disappointed wid my results..really need do smth abt it la..cannot be distracted abt anymore...yesh..need to FOCUS..but it juz dun work out le...haiz...

ok la..i tink i wan go already..need to do research abt gis..hahahzz..hardworking ah..hahah..ok ciaoz...

hellooooo...im back..haha..lets start wid today..woke up so early to go to skol to collect results but still neva get it back..wat la..woke up so early juz to get it but..haiz..den need go skol early tml again to get it again..den waited for 1 and half hour in e library for geog meeting..sum focus group tingy..den went out wid handry, grace n keith to eat..nice yummy but not as yummy la...den after tat went to Upper Pierce Reservoir to do sum geog stuffs..wowow the place there was so romantic..furthermore it was so peaceful and cold as it was raining non stop..but still the ambience was supErb cool la..

we were wearing ponchos and we were looking so damn CUTE..were camwhoring but still did our research..damn interesting..went to the side of the reservoir to take samples of water to be tested. used all sorts of equipments like GPS den alot more la.i dun noe the names..a really exciting experience if onli the rain juz stop for a moment and let us do our research.but the rain really made me feel so light and wan it more...nice nice so nice..i tink sum ppl will say tat i siao la..

den went back to skol..hey yes we took taxi to n fro..muz really thank ms hong and ms huang..they superb gd..went back to skol to be SCIENTISTS.hahha...we need do sum experiments wid the water..at first cannot do coz smth wrong but later a Chem teacher came in to help den we can continued doing successfully. it was a tiring day but a memorable one indeed. since we neva do much today, we will again go there tml n continue wid our research.hope smth nice will happen tml so i can take it as memories. seeing the way i type really can show tat i m SUPER DEAD TIRED..haiz...is tis really a vacation for us? doesnt look like one le..i really wan spend my hols meaningfully.i wan study hard..juz now i really got pissed off wid smth..haiz forget abt it..presidentail election cuming up n i hope there sre no conflicts..pls..although it does not bother me but i m still part of the student council..

hahhaha...today i also kind of happy..she is online but she is not free..cannot talk to her den..haiz..but at least i see her online.tot of msging her but y muz i take the initiative? siao...ok la..i damn tired so i tink i wan go rest..continue tml den mayb..i love xue gongcan but he is damn damn FAR to reach coz he is a STAR in the sky while i m on the land..haizz sad sad..hahha..ok la nite nite..sweet dreams..(:

haizzz..today is another day tat is gonna passed wid nth tat i achieved..wat la..today is like another day tat i didnt do much...was so bz trying to study but then my step siblings cum to my house to stay over..haizz..den i got to entertain them..can u like imagine me(e oldest among all but still immatured) trying to take care of small kids tat r half my age?i will be e same la..trying to revive my childhood memories ah...hahaahzz..den since they have nothing to do except accompanying me to watch Pirates of Carribean, i taught them the MI dance..wat onli me..it was so sosososo difficult to teach them la..i was not tat patient but i got to..one of them was so SLOW tat it really really made me sooooo eessshh angry la..i tried to control la..if not my hand will juz raise or i will juz shout.but i cannot blame her rite..so i juz SMILED sympatheticly..for myself..haizz...now i tink i will ask my sis to teach them..no way will i do la..but i feel like EXPERT la..wowowo...sabrina can dance..hahaha...

haiz..y the hell im sighing? siao...i m juz too tired la...i dun noe wat i did but i m really mentally tired..hahah..guess wat now my sis is teaching them..go shaqirah..u will vomit blood la...hahah...Evil me as always..haha...i m still waiting for smth la..dun noe wat le..so restless...esssssssssssh...i wan msg sumone la..neva tok for so long se..but i dun wan disturb coz i noe i may result in her poor results..haiz..but then i really wan talk la..miss se..hahah...i dun noe whether she also miss me..hahahha...sab u SIck..hahah...i m....dunno la..guess wat now my room has bcum a dancing place..hahha..so fun la..they damn CUTE...hahha...sameer is juz runnin around to be an extra..doing break dance or wat..aedia is dancing pretty well..thnx to me..hahah..expert dance TEACHER..hahah..maisarah is juz looking so bored coz she has not learn fully..sad but i can teach her tml den..

wowow need to wake up early..collect results den need wait to go Bishan Park..going under to the canal to do sum geog stuffs..cms fun but damn scared la..hahha...now it cms tat i m a LOVE EXPERt other than dancing..hahah..i can help ppl but cannot help myself..hmph...nvm..i will try helping myself..hahahok la..i tink i need sleepp..tml need wake up early..i wan SLEEP..till late afternoon...nowadays i have been waking up late.. so tired n lazy...but now i m going to change my routine..haiz..i wan study..i wan sleep..i miss sumone...hahhahazzz...ok la..i wan sleep NOW..so continue tml mayb..i tinki m gonna be addictive to tis blog man..ok nite nite..i love xue gongcan..hahha..sweet dreams..

i really wonder if there is at least one damn good, soft spoken, guy out there? dun tell me all die already la..i tot there are like so many tress but mostly the trees r all so like shitty.. i dun noe y but they r like tat..i m not being feminist but i really hate guys tat really bitchy..if a girl who is in trouble, looked up for a guy for help tinkin tat he can helped her out but in the end, betrayed her? wat the hell he tink he is la.a big shot? give me a break la..its like..haiz..tis is juz ruining my mood la..i tink gals these days need be single la..its ok..at least u wun get cheated nor get ur feelings played with..

haiz..i juz watched tis korean serial MY GIRL...wowow the guys r damn cute la..they can really melt my stoned heart...but dun ever get deceived by the looks la..today's episode quite sad la..it cms so difficult for each of them to express their feelings but in tis serial,the girl cms to be so vold coz she is e one giving hints la..but guys r dumbos cannot understand la..haiz...i really cried today..my heart skipped a beat when he juz took her hand and ran wid her...wowowo...so romantic..can tis really happen in reality? i dun tink so..hahahzz..mayb i can juz dream abt it la..these days i like so happy..whu noes mayb i will b upset e next few days..shit la..anyway i m juz waiting to get dirty on Mon..haiz..today like so boring eh..nth to do..tried doing my hmwk but cannot..no concentration.

i cms to be lost today..how cum ah...i also no idea..haiz waiting for sumone mayb..hahazzzz..whu se? Xue Gongcan? mayb..in my dreams den..haiz..do u really belive if u count till 5 den u will c the person u like? try ok..hahazz..i tink silly ppl will try la..haiz..y m i sighing? i m really LOST...haizhaiz....i dun noe wat else to write..ok la..i tink my bed is calling out to me..nite nite..i miss sumone la..but tat sumone..dun noe la..haahazzz...m i like revealing too much? i also dun noe..sabrina..cannot tink abt it k..CONCENTRATE ON STUDIES...haiz feelings r difficult to control le..but now u dun even noe if tat sumone also like u..so wat the hell..FORGET ABT IT la...haiz....stop it la sab..hahahzz..i m fighting wid my inner self... ok la..i beta go off b4 i reveal too much info..hahazz.nite nite..sweet dreamz..xue gongcan..(:

hehehehhe...hi tis is like my first time having ablog..wat aloser i m i tink..but i m sure tats sum ppl there also do not have blog..hahaha..i m not tat bad ah...oh my yesterday was a long day indeed la..got amzing race...i dun noe for wat..they said to bond us but it looks tat we r more segregated le..i also dun understand..but its kind of fun la..run around like crazy as a class though..hahhaha...den do sum stupid task like caterpillar balloon den dancing macarena...so happy tat no one like backed out la...my class spirit damn poweR la..it was a tiring day but den enjoyable.was laughing at hamzah's jokes coz he said tat if his mom knew tat he was soing stupid tings, den he will have to stop studying..wat nonsense la.but he damn helpful la..i still remember in poa class, he was sitting next to me den teaching me la..wowoow damn gd la..but still i tink i dun understand le..but he did his best so muz really thank him..muz ask him help me den hahahha...

ok continue on tat day story...den after amazing race, grace, darwy, huda, fiza and me went eat...so fun la coz we tend to express our feelings..i n fiza ended fighting for wei liang for dun noe wat reasons...we r like so silly la..den grace was looking so EMO...i can understand her feelings but mayb she juz needs to sort tings out la..den after tat, fiza n grace bought clothes..den grace n i went to watch leap yrs..Leap yrs...haiz...a love story consists of PAtience, PAteince and patience...hahahzz. u shld watch it la..i was on the verge of crying suddenly the endin was STUPID..as usual grace was crying..its touching and really hearwarming la...but instead of crying, i was LAUGHING...wat se sabrina..i like stone hearted neva cry..but then when i told tis story line to my sis..i could really feel the effects...slow effects la..it was touching la..really fun to express love tat way ah..now muz wait for leap yr in another 4 yrs..wth..hahazz...guys will neva do anything to woo woman so woman muz really woo them..wat onli...den beta dun be guy rite..siao...anyway i tink now my favourite word is siao le..dun noe y..but i like it..haiz....now got so many problems..studies on the rocks..gosh i really need buck up la..time will neva wait la...sabrina...jiayous..to tink now while writing tis blog...i really missed my loved ones..i dun noe y le..emotions juz started to fill my heart...ok i tink tats all for now..sabrina is so lazy to type la..

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