its been 2 days since i had been absent from skol...i m sure i m goona miss a lot of lessons..i will be missin tml n friday too...had a damn bad tingy happened on mon when got to noe tat my grandma passed away..early mornin she was all ok but at nite, the phone call juz broke me into pieces coz the person who had been takin care of me n sis since young ever since my own grandma passed away..so she is like my second one...after my grandad passed away on sunday, den my grandma on mon...wth..double blow se..both had to go at e same time se...can't they wait for sum time? ok tis is all destined...

den on the same day, had a bloody high fever..had been havin it since last thurs but i had no coughs n no flu..juz tat my temp is like so high like i tink the highest was 38.7..caused severe headaches..but sabrina was gd in acting so my parents or sis did not noe anythin abt it..ahhaha gd actor..so went to doc...so doc told me its a difficult case..so was refered to kk hospital...took 2 panadols to lower my temp den went to have sum check and den they refered me to general hospital..so i had a day of tourin hospitals on tues's nite..

at general hospital, went for check up..had to draw blood..they poked 3 times at different nerves..and i was juz crying coz i had never been injected like tat for so long..den waited for lab results..den got to noe there is infections in my blood...BAD!!!! n i m given antibiotic..but den if fever still never subside, had to meet specialist...wth..so had to meet specialist on fri..hopefully nth much la..coz i heard if worst comes to worst i need go for sum draining...not sure la..

more updates later on...goona miss lessons..haiz...ok la..nites n sweet dreams...(:

hiyie..ahha...i have been veri veri lazy to update my blog..quite stressed wid lots of stuffs...there are lots of tings i need to do...art was really scary when i knew the backstage scene of wad is needed to do if i wan to score..den was shocked to hear tat one of my group member will be leaving skol..hmm...i guess we, i mean me, nirah n wendy need to be Charlie's angels...den who will be Charlie? Nirah wanted Pwerpuff Gals but den i guess we r not tat childish..ahah..not me rite..i m not childish rite..ok i m livin in denial den..aahha...

i had been a daze since a feww days...really dun noe wad i was tinkin abt..juz imagine..like smoke surrounded u n u r floating or maybe sitting on blue clouds..daydreamin...hmm..tats nice ah..n not to forget u have furry wings..wwow cool...ok i m being ridiculous...i was stunned to read fandy's msg n it took me a few mins to digest the content though it was in simple english..it was veri touchin n it really made one tink of all the laughter we had when he was ard..n i still rmb the day when i shouted Lady Marmalade to him....hey wait..i m tokin as if he is no longer living se.ahah..fandy, no matter wad, u have 07A6's support, love n concern..we r there for u k...juz make a wise decision to lead u to ur destination which is the university..i tink mistakes make a man stronger..

hmm pw is gonna be tough widout him coz no one to make us laugh when we r stressed n no more actin by him but the 3 Charlie Angels can managed it rite..jiayous..ahahha...haiz..ok enuf of sighin abt tis..we have to be strong n interconnected..like globalisation..ok i m not tinkin straight i guess...might be gettin results tml..hopes for the best but onli the heart noes the truth..ahaha..hmm...sad news in the mornin to noe tat my granduncle had passed away ..hmm sad but won't cry coz they said tat when u cry, he won't go in peace...i tink he was the bestest granddad(i regarded him as granddad coz my granddad is no mor) becoz he treated us equally..his children which means my aunties were really there when we needed them last time..

juz now was listenin to tis malay song abt " it doesn't mean anything if u live for thousand yrs if u dun pray"..n tat song got stuck in my head..hmm i have not been a gd gal..so i tink i m veri scared wid the punishments..but like wad others will say, u need to face up to the music...i also dun noe the proverb..hmm..yes tats abt it..

ok la..more to blog when skol starts again tml...ahaha..like reopens se..ahah ok la gtg now..tatatititutu nites guys..sweetdreams..(:

welcome to my blog again..ahaha...sorry for tis lameness coz i m tryin to start by not saying hello but saying sumting new..hmmm...

so wads up today? actually nth much but i really did ENJOY the umbrella duty..e best ting man..get to play in the rain..but e worst ting was that i was drenched n it felt so sticky..hmm..den geog was ok..not too bad n not to gd..it was in the middle..den bio was Fun..it was veri entertainin wid havin sum teachers tat r tryin to be like us..interacting wid us..not bad..thumbs up to mr imran n mr chan..ahhaha...

today my mood was up n down..it was not stable at all..was feelin low but feelin high at e same time...ahah..finally i tok to ben after a long long time..it was not tat awkward though..it was funny coz i scare him..ahahh..n his drawing was gd..damn gd but i dun noe if he can finish it in 4 weeks time coz the head, hand n legs haven finish se..sorry ben..i will wan to help u but i tink u can do it beta coz i will juz ruin ur hardwork..art club was definitely boring..no songs, no nothing..BORING!!!!

today it was raining heavily in the morning..so alighted the bus to c Sc on duty to lend umbrellas to students..so i tot tat my sis will pair wid fiza..so tis pre u 3 guy was so thoughtful, he asked if i would like to share the umbrella wid him..so i said ok la..coz i got no partner se..went ahead wid him..he was so tall and big built whereas i m so small like dwarf la..den my sis n fiza was laughin behind la lookin at our height differences..siao..but he gd la..he was seeing if i got drenched or not..so he put the umbrella near to me..gd ah..wad a gentleman..ahaha..!!!

ok la..hmm wad to add ah..ok i m veri veri happy wid sum gd news abt my fren..hope everything will go well for her..no more sadness but more happiness n smiles on her face...hmm...i m stuck le..wad to write sumore? i m feelin veri tired now..although didnt do much today...ahahha...perhaps it was a long day for me la..had sum laughters wid frens today...tml will be another long day for me..den friday will be cuti..means HOLiday..ahah..

hmm and also..my mom cooked my favourite dish..its a pakistani dish la..called karahi ghosht...damn sedap n nice..finger lickin gd..its been so so so long ever since she cooked tis dish for me..thnx..so when i returned home from skol, i was like a monster in the kitchen finding for food..food is my WOrld..ahha.. now dinesh will surely ask me y will i always write abt food coz the last time i wrote abt it n he asked me e next day..ahah...dinesh, i love love food..FOOD IS MY LOVE LOVE..ahha..

ok i m damn damn bored now..so i m veri lame la..get used to it k..coz i m like tat..ahha...ok la..wan go now..sweet dreams n nites..smiles(:hmm...make me happier n i will love u deeply and madly..FEVER!!!!ahhaha...

i LOVE LOVE THIS SONG ...ahaha...its like so slow n soothing to hear la...i m tired so will blog more later on tis week k..see ya..adious....nites n sweet dreams..(:

hmm...didnt do much today except for watching tv..i guess i m too lazy to start on my revision..but i could not be lazy for a lifetime rite..ahah...tml will have an awesome day wearin traditional clothes, i tink so..hopefully it will be fun coz wearing it to skol wid skolbag is not fun la..will look so funny la..but we are encouraged by NEC so we need to support them rite..hmm...thought of wearing cheongsam but no one has it..so decided to stay wid my decision, wearing indian costumes la..aahhha..

had been tinking deeply about sum stuffs in my head that really kept me pretty occupied..then, i was lost in my own world n bcame ignorant abt ppl ard me and stuffs happening ard me..mum was talking abt sum stuffs to me while i was bz tinking of sum stuffs n doing my geofile. i guess she was pissed coz no one to listen to her but i need to TINK la..sumtimes i mayb selfish but sumtimes i will listen to all the nonsense and anything la..but sumtimes i need time alone..give me a break la..i guess u guys dun understand wad tis gal is talkin abt but..try to la..ahah..

finally i did ONE pathetic geofile..quite ok la..but was tired after doing one..ahah..guess i got to do it more often..ahah...i also need read malay newspaper to improve on my vocabs..nowi realised tat i really really have not much time...time, day, mins are all passing me veri veri veri fast..can i have a time machine..if i have a time machine, i will stop time when i was primary 6..hmm..u shld noe y la..ended up listening to hindi songs n translating it to english for my maid tis evenin..wad se..like got nth beta to do..i tink i really have nth beta to do la..

readin gracey's blog and saw her talking abt celebrating her grandpa's bdae..was envy coz i lost my grandparents den could not celebrate their bdae..she is so lucky to still have them..if my grandparents still ard, i guess tings will be differnt now..so now my grandparents are represented by stars in the sky..could get to c them at nite..nice ah....haiz..i guess shld stop harpin n sighing abt tis la..

ok la..gtg now..see ya soon..ahah..for another round of expressing of feelings..ahaha....(:

today is like the most disappointing day that i went thru in skol...got back geog papers in the morning..and tell u frankly, the results i got for geog were not encouraging at all...it really turned me off in the morning..after wad mr saw said n mr ivan lim presented to us for assembly, i m so scared if i will be the unfortunate one to b retained or chased out from skol..i cannot possibly land in tat death trap coz i chose to travel the journey myself n i tink many mocked at my decision.so its like a challenge to prove to them i got to do well....but my own plan is backfiring me..i m in shit la..

we were supposed to write our target for geog juz now..n wad will we do if we exceed the target and if we do not meet the target..so i ended up using my Sc as a pawn...i have to do tat coz i really wanted Sc badly..its like an asset..so i wun definitely not put my asset in trouble rite...so this will encourage me to study hard..however if i really dun meet my target, i guess its e rite ting to quit SC...coz my a levels is important too..

ok la..i guess now i have to bcum serious..i tink tis setback really made me aware tat i really DUN have time to wait..the answers for exams wun drop from the sky..so i have to really buck up..anyways gtg now coz i need go hospital now to meet my grandma..wonder how is she coz didnt visit her ytd..hope everything is alrite..

gtg now..gdnite n swweet dreams...(:

hi ppl....yesterday was fun n tiring..i didnt noe tat playing touch rugby was tat tough..but muz admit tat it was superb fun playing wid frens..superb fun..even when we didnt win, we kept encouraging each other and was not blaming each other...we were supportive la...quite cool..ahaha.

i still cannot believe how lame n blur i was in the field. the ball was there n i tot i shld juz let it roll over and let the people behind picked it up..den grace was shouting at me" run sabby, run!!!"so i did listen to her and ran WITHOUT THE BALL..however, i didnt picked up the ball to run..so u can imagine how far i was from the ball n i got to come back n start the game.. i tinkgrcae tot i got the ball so she asked me to run but sori la..i was so stupid la..walau paise man..i was laughing at myself la..even my group members laughed at me..come on, its like my first time playing the game. so i of course bur sotong la...ahahha...

came back home wid high fever..so let me describe to u the feeling of being sick in volcanoes terms..i was coughin and choking up on sulphur dioxide and then i vomit tephra a few times( the ting tat really makes ur throat so unez, but i dun noe wads the name). then my nose was giving out pahoehoe...not viscous at all...its like tapwater so i need to go everywhere wid tissue paper coz it may juz drip..(did i sound disgusting, hope not). so i can be a shield volcano..my name is Mauna Loa..ahaha...

juz went to the hospital to meet my grandma..my aunty told us tat she is hard of breathin so we all wen straight to the hospital....was kind of upset to c alot of tubes on her..n she called one by one to talk to..when it cums to my turn, she asked me if i have eaten..den i said Yes...den i asked her whether she ate already n stroked her hand...she didnt answer me..so i asked 3 times..den she slowly said yes..but in a weak manner..however, den got to noe tat she was not given any food as she is a bad condition and no food can be chewed..so i realised i asked the wrong question..dumb of me..i still rmb when she asked me n sis to sleep ah her place coz she wan us be wid her..but till now, we didnt even sleep there..but i could said tat i really like her willpower coz i heard she prayed even in tat condition..if sum ppl, they will juz lie down n wait for the time to cum...i m happy tat she wanted to be clean so she can pray..i love her a lot..den sum of my aunties said tat she may not last long..i afraid of her leavin us but its all up to God, i guess..i juz want her to remain strong till the end..

will be visiting her tml again..so i wan c her again..strong n persevere..i hope my prayers will be fulfilled..i love her...i guess its so difficult to bear the loss of a loved one if tat really happens..i lost my 2 grandmas and 2 granddads..so i dun wa lose another one..

ok guys, gtg now...goodnite n sweet dreams..(: no one noes when u will leave to meet God...so juz live life to the fullest..

ok lets start wid today...its been a few days since i cried n i did cry a little today..was pretty happy wid the tears coz it brought out all the tiny little sadness n dirty stuffs tat may have been inside my eyes..quite ok la..juz tat now my head is as if in the ballroom, doing sum rounds and rounds..quite ok la..hopefully no blue black la..ahahha...if not sad se...my face already so retarded and add with e blue black makes it look MORE retarded..ahahha...

hey nirah, relax la..i m ok..i m partly at fault so dun b sori..i dun like to hear so many sori or thnx la..ahah...its not my hobby..ahaha...

had fun going back wid grace, darwy n sis today..had lots of laugh n teasin each other..n i was being lame wid my superstitions and they could still put up wid it..so thnx guys..i noe u guys r encouraging my lameness...ahah..siao rite...best ppl to hang out wid...who appreciate my lame jokes..ahah...

tml will get back gp paper n i noe its a GONE for me...acc was juz saving me but a few marks..malay compo was gone coz was not answering to e question..haiz..tml has bio test n i m still relax..cool..sabby is bcumin lazy...so the previous post is like no purpose coz i m not followin wad i said...hmm...i need sum scolding or punishment den..

ok gtg now..i m SUPERB hungry...n SUPERB tired...despite doin nth much today..did wushu n silat..quite fun la..but not my type la..ok ok i got to confess smth...i really really MISSED him ok..i really had to say tis coz its suffocatin me..i noe i shldn't be sayin tis but i dun noe y...i hate it..sorry for being fickle minded..but i shall try my level best to forget everything..EVERYTHING..really...i need time..n i will DO It...i m juz deceiving myself..living in denial man..

ok guys, nites n sweet dreams...(:

hello..ahah...it was a slow n chilly day today..veri cold..but I sincerely LOVED it..coz its been so long i wished n hoped for it to rain n finally my wish was fulfilled..ahahha...didnt do much today..get my bio paper back..e onli word i could describe was DISAPPOINTED..i knew i could do beta coz i was blur for sum of the questions despite knowin the answers but dunno how to apply it..damn sad but den i did improved sincecommon test..so there was like a tinge of happiness...den told darwy n nirah abt my failure...n i was laughing instead of being sad... i guess i was immuned to these failures...hope i will do beta for promos..i could onli blame myself for the failure coz i concentrated more on geog..bio was a last min study tat really freaked me out..one day b4 bio paper, i was entirely stressed up n huda aided me in encouraging me..lucky for me tat i had her at tat time..if not i DIE se..but i shld revise obediently n stop being LAZY..i can do it, rite...

hmm i shld believe in myself, do a timetable to follow thru for tis week..hopefully can make it..i will encourage myself n also others..tml will be gettin acc n malay..hopefully tings will turn out well but i noe where i stand so could not wish for those tat i could not possibly get..i could juz dream lor..hmm...tinkon the bright side of life la..(:

to my frens, i noe u guys r pretty tensed wid tings..so i noe its ez to tok den get it into actions..but i tink we juz need believe in ourselves and instead of wailin or sighing, we shld do smth to amend our mistakes such as study last min or didnt put in effort..we got to change ourselves so we can perform well n produce beta grades..rite..i noe tat i m also not beta than any of u guys n i may not have e right to say this, but if we keep looking at back and dun move forward, we will be left behind den..den it will take time to catch up..so lets do it together..till a levels..lets be each other's strength n get rid of the weaknesses k..

i guess i have been preachin a lot so i beta stop if not...ppl will call me naggy...ok la..gdnite and sweet dreams..(:jiayous..there are more to cum..

Finally FINALLy...examz is OFFICIALLY OVER...yeah...time to let ur hair down and enjoy the 4 days of freedom from skol coz when we go back to skol next tues, it will be damn hectic wid gettin the results back and wid PW..walau tinking abt tat really made me so pissed la..coz there're a lot of tings up my sleeves...Eom has not been done..damn tired wid 2 papers today..screwed up acc..i tink iexpected it la..coz last min read theory n den didnt practise the questions..

shld learn from my mistakes of not studying last min but i tink the bad habits cannot die off tat fast..hmm...art was ok..sumtimes my ok can bring me my doom se..hmm lets dun tok abt tis den..pretty screwed everythin so let it be left unsaid la...

was pretty bored today..waited for 506 for nearly 30 mins..den told mala y not we take train home..den she said wait for the next bus..den i asked her" wad if 506 cums in front den the other bus comes behind? which one will she take" i told her i will take train home..noe wad..really, both bus came but we took 506 coz we r tired n hungry.. but i was veri sleepyso i slept in the bus while mala was listenin to songs..

so guess wad i did once i reached home..if u r smart, den u shld noe wad i did..ahah...i went to FIND FOOD..my top priority..ahaha...luckily there was food..if not i will starve la..to DEATH..tats extreme ah..ahah..ok i m damn damn tired....i need to sleep...but i wan enjoy..so lets c wad i will do la..ahah..

hmm i miss sumone le..but i tink its like shit la..not supposed to do tat..come on sab, u can stop feelin like tat..but the feelings is like so difficult..i m pathetically tryin my best..but the past is haunting me la..i can stop tis rite..ahha...

ok gtg now..i wan sleep..tatazzz gd nite sweet dreams...i wan go find my prince charmin..where is he? i shall tell u..he is in my room..he is POOH..ahah..nites..(:

hello..its the second last day to my examinations..im juz waiting for art paper to end den i can den sigh a relief...i m like so stress for this few days wid lots of papers tis whole week..its much more relaxing last week coz i have sum gaps in btw...but tis week its like paper after paper..its been sum times since i blogged..

hmm its finally july ya..time passed pretty fast..june is gone, next up will b august...so fast den promos...haiya..can we students have a break from all tis examination..if onli im e ruler of Spore, i will hmmm...make sure there're onli few examinations...and more on vocational..but if i were really the ruler, i tink Spore will b doom la in my hand..coz i m not decisive, veri playful n dun take tings seriously...ok enuf of me dreamin abt being a ruler..back to exams...i juz screwed up m urban geog today..urban is juz not my fren la..yesterday did pretty bad for bio..i guess my mid yr is screwed, the same as common test..i m really DEAD..coz i m sure there will b parent teacher meet...die die die...

tml have 2 major H2 subjects...Acc n art...m i crazy or not...there're so much to learn n understand but my mind is not absorbing most of it..m i sick of tis revision? i tink so..but i have no choice se...so definitely have to strive hard la.. but art is definitely not cooperatin wid me la..wad to do to make me love art..oh darlin art, give me a chance and have sum mercy on me la..(:lets seduce art..perhaps it will give in..ahah..

yesterday took pledge in front of luckily small number of students..did pretty ok la..luckily no mistakes..if not ppl will laugh se..but it was a nice experience..everyone shld get a chance to do it..

ok la..i beta stop bloggin..i can blog as much as i wan after exams..tata..nitezz ppl..sweet dreams...hmm ya can anyone help me wid art? i m havin brain drain now..help...(:(: