hello..one whole week has juz swept me..tml will be the 30 june and june will also bid goodbye to me and july will wave to say heloo to me..den left with like one mth to promos..hmm tats like scary to tink coz im not even done wid mid yr..and tinking of promos...hmm i m not prepared for bio...wowoow...tats is really freakin me out..trust me..

yesterday had a day wid cousins coz we were Finally dicussing abt the performance for the wedding..and finished dancing for one whole song..cool..but still need improvement..today went to uncle house for sum family occasion..juz reached home..

tml will be seating for malay oral..pretty scared coz my malay is corrupted la..i wonder how i will converse tml man..scary..but i will try my best..today i really missed missed my Loved ones a lot..wished them to b beside me..hmm but its pretty hard to get them as sum have left the world..

ok la..gtg now..need do my art..c ya guys..gdnites and sweet dreams..(:i love u...

hello...exmas have started and could really feel the stress among my frens and myself..veri scared if dun do well coz i really really wan get promoted..was revising geog at gracey's house juz now..from like 4 till 10..hmm..but its not all revision..of course got sum chit chatting la..hmm sum not la..a LOT of tat la..geog was gettin more boring and too detailed..but its kind of cool coz the more we read, the more we find it more detailed and more questions arising from it..den we read sumore and find the key to those questions..quite a discovery..so was kind of fun la...(: thnx grace for lettin me to ur house till late..sorry to trouble u but i really were feelin bored studying all alone at home..once again, thnx..(:

so now bloggin after a week i tink..not bad..i can really tahan not bloggin or use the internet unnecessarily..furthermore heard abt the rising of the cost of electricity in spore...it cms tat i must not use it unnecessarily..hmm.ahahazzz...

oh ya..juz now at grace's home, we were kind of bored and started wid the conversation of goin backpacking or visiting region where volcanoes reside.( mayb at Hawaii..aloha)..hmm cool ah..i really wan go la..den when look at the price, we were laughin..u shld noe y la..ahah...but to save tat money, we will work durin the hols n save the money..hmm...if cannot visit volcanoes, go backpackin lor..hmm but first muz save money la..ahaha..so who wan follow/ u muz take an application from me and grace..ahahha...(:

ok la..wan sleep now..tml got geog paper and pretty scared la..hmm hope can do it..nites ppl and sweeetzzz dreamzzz (=


the more i tink of it
i getting over it...(:

yay at last i did watch Kungfu Panda..gdness..the panda damn cute la..really veri adorable though its like the biggest size among all the animals...but still veri cute..guess wads its name..it was Po la..nearly to Pooh..ahah...really like both panda n pooh man..so cute...i tink i n panda veri compatible coz we r CRAZY abt cookies and food..basically food la..ahah...he is damn cute when he heard abt the bottle of cookies and climbed high to get it..den when he was fighting over the dumpling wid Shifu...so cute man..i can continue talking abt him for tis whole post but den shall not...

was readin bio notes which kind of entangled my brain networks n juices so i stopped readin it..too many info se..den ended up reading tis book abt tis gal losing her virginity to a guy who claimed tat he loved her and he will married her..but den sadly, he juz used her and left her to rot..pathetically stupid of the gal to juz give in to him at her weakest point of time i guess..den it struck me like wad is virginity to gals and boys? are there any differences btw gals and boys? is it like they losing their whole life tingy like respect, love or etc when they lose their virginity...i also not sure..i could juz tink tat wat would a gal go thru if she really lost her virginity to guy tat she really loved and in the end got to noe tat he is juz using her..tats sad ya..how will e gal continue living or mayb she will live but then she will find it difficult to trust any guys anymore..hmm yupz..tats abt it..juz sum opinions n tots of mine..still remembered when nellie told us to not lose our virginity till we r married in the art room..kind of random at tat time when she told us but den i tink its for our own good ya..ahahha..perhaps now i m random coz talked abt tis out of a sudden..ahah...

ok la..have to read up on geog next...god is my life juz abt reading book of theory after book...tis is definitely no life la..but i cannot complain since i chose to do tis..hmm...its my decision rite...haiz..sad....

ok la..gtg..btw grace, i really liked the photo of the volcano..thnx for uploadin it ya..cool se...wonder if its gonna erupt soon..ahah...but its so nice to tok to darwy and grace ytd nite after a mth..ahah...so for now keep muggin guys..jiayouz..we r doin tis together rite...so all e best..(:

hello...ok lets c..2 more days to the reopen of skol and EXAMZZZZZZZZZZZ...
gosh...i m so dead la...haiz..there're so much or many to learn..i m like so in a pot of hot magam n m burnin in it..ahahha...funi la me..i tink i m veri HIGH now..

was supposed to do revision on art n geog but i m too lazy or perhaps it juz did not get absorb into my brain when i m too tired..ahah...yesterday was like e first call from darwy durin the hols..was so happy to receive her msg n call..ahah...after a long long long time ya...will call grace soon to hear her sexy voice.aahha....funi la my frens all...

i m countin down to the reopen of skol n sum of my frens said i got no life..perhaps its true ah..i could count down for other fun n exciting tings but den countin down for the boringest ting ya..ahahha...mayb i m makin ppl scared wid my count down..ahaha...

ok la..gtg now..hey dear frens, pls tc of urself k and mug harder for tis last 2 days k..i will support u guys or mayb we could all support each other ya..tc..Jiayouz..

i m OFF to watch Kungfu Panda...yay..haiyyahhh..(kicking sound)ahaha...enjoy mugging..i will mug soon after relaxing ya...tc..nitez...sweeetttsss dreammssss....(:

at the rite hand side is me wid sis..ahah..yay cut my hair again...like blur sotong hahha...but i liked it..ahahh...(:

hello...(: today is another day tat passed me..with my Knowledge..ahahha..
i m happy today for dun noe wad reason...ahaha but i noe i m Happy although there was sum time when i was really really bored..hmm didnt do much today..left wid one more week b4 skol reopens..hmm i really not sure if i m ready for the upcomin examz..hmm...

haha...one ting to be happy tat i changed my wallpaper or to say blogskin..i m like so happy coz i did my updates all by myself..so proud of myself..ahah..coz frankly, i m a total idiot when comes to changing the skin and updating abt myself..so now i really damn happy..its like my 3rd skin..hmm..wat would i change to later?ahhaha...

was readin darwy's post and she was tokin abt calvin..
dear darwy, dun worry i m definitely not pissed off la..i have lots of pooh to take care of.they need my love n care..so u can have him la..ahah...i will stay loyal to my beloved pooh..the one in my heart n life..ahaha...

ok to grace den..
dear grace, i will definitely miss u coz u r leavin for jakarta soon...so tc of urself and rmb wad mr saw said..and enjoy urself k...tc...

ok now to me..
dear sabrina, u have not been revising a lot..so u got to BUCK UP..

hmm...haiz..i have been tinkin...y r gals goin for older men and guys goin for older women...it cms funny though...wat if older men like younger women...hmmm..tats absurd rite but it cms relevant now in today's context...perhaps out of love or...i shall not tink too much into it..

n yupz..now my blog skin is abt dreams..
In my dreams, i m a different me
In a different world
I feel free
My smiles are real
And i m able to feel something other than tis pain
YAY!!!!ahahha

ok la..i wan sleep now..can u imagine tat i juz switched on the com to blog coz my family are watchin the tv now..the time now is 1.47am..ok la..i m sleeeeeeppppppy.....now i tink u can c e crazy me la..i m active at nite..like a bat..ahahha...dun get e wrong idea ya..ahahha...
swwwwwweeeeetttt dddddrrrreeeeeeeeeeeAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMssssssss
love ya...:)

(there my Pooh family)

6 of June 1990- the day n yr i was born..hmm dun noe if it was a fortunate day or mayb sum misfortune..hmm...
its e day tat i broke into cries n wails..broke the silence of the house wid funny antics and nonsensical stuffs..wid arguments and quarrels for the last 17 yrs...not matured..still playin a fool..makin a fool out of myself..being veri gullible n naive abt stuffs...neva take tings so seriously unless its really necessary..veri panicky at times..wowo i guess i learnt a lot from the last 17 yrs but since i have STM, i juz dun have any collection of stuffs tat happened..

hmm ok lets start wid wad happen yesterday since its onli yesterday..i can remember it vividly..hmm all i can remember tat i cried most of the time..it was definitely not tears of joy..i was definitely pissed off wid sum ppl...juz made my mood off. when it was 12am on the 6th, i was of course happy n excited coz many frens wished me..it juz made me feel so touched..den when it came to the early morning, tings juz started going awful..i was juz waitin for the clock to tick off at 12am for 7 th of june to come..it was so depressing..i was wishing that my bdae was not yesterday or it juz dun exist.. hmm although we went for bdae dinner at nite, it juz didnt make me happy 100%..its either i m too sensitive n hard hearted n take everythin tat happened like shit..haiz...but i cannot deny tat there were certain stuffs tat really made me happy..for eg the gifts i got from grace n farah n mohsin..they were all tings got to do wid winnie e pooh...cool man...i really loved it la..thnx guys..gifts juz brightened up my day..

ok...mye is juz 2 weeks away..n tis is freakin me out..bio is like so dead for me..so many to learn..haiz..die la..ahha..will try harder la..ok my post for yesterday was so random la..but it was really how i felt yesterday...hmm..perhaps u guts dun noe e whole tingy abt it..but wad i felt yesterday was beyond words to describe..i juz hope no one will go thru it like me..hmm...

ok la..gtg now..see ya...nite ppl..miss my loved ones a lot yesterday..i juz wan sumone to console me yesterday but it cms tat i m left all alone to cry..its damn painful..n i need keep my tears away from everyone..so no one knew wat was i goin thru..haiz..loneliness is not e medicine to sorrows..i hope i wun shed any more tears for now..coz i m damn tired wid it..tears running wild..no one there..it juz sux....ok..nite n sweet dreams..got to catch up on stuffs n frens n gossips perhaps..(:

Do u have a first aid kit handy
Do u know how to patch up a wound
Tell me, are you patient and understanding
Cause i might need some time to clear the hole in my heart n
I've tried every remedy and nothing seems to work for me
That my heart is Damaged
How u gonna fix it..
You tried to gain my trust
Talking is not enough
Actions speak louder than words
My heart is missing some pieces
I need this puzzle put together again

Life is such a crazy thing
Its never like what it seems
I trying to read between the lines
To see if there's something i missed
Hate when gotta leave another opportunity

hmmm...today's morning was really WELCOMED wid such a truth that the onli respond i could give was "oh OK." and then awkward silence between us after the truth bein revealed of sum ppl..wat a SURPRISE..really it was damn an eye opener la..thnx to the ppl who really showed the light to me..hmm..now i m in the state that really do not noe who to believe..tis world is full of liars, deceptions tat it is really difficult to to place my trust on anybody.now, i tink i m juz feeling numb..no more tears to shed i guess..when she told me the truth, tears were nearly wellin up in my eyes..den i was like shld i cry juz for tis small tinyy matter or shld i be strong n faced it..so i decided to be strong..hahah...i guess it was all a facade since morning..gdness..its really great to be really enjoyin tis experience..i m ok la..juz felt unbelievable..now i m tinkin if i m really ok..

ok..its ok..iwonder wat didnt tat person tell me the truth so i wun be led on wid my emotions.thnx ah..really was such a fool for how many months ah..its ok..if tat person is happy wid doin tis, i shld b happy also for tat person..tat person's happiness is mine too..all e best ah..be happy n always smile..i shall juz shut the doors of my emotions, pretendin to be ignorant of such truth and continue bein frens. hmm...i guess tats e best i could do. guess i being over sensitive n take tings too seriously..its my mistake too..

ok tat really made me feel veri low n not hyper of meeting amanda heng..but after a while, i was kind of happy to meet her..she is veri nice to talk to..veri approachable..really learnt a lot today..i m so happy to be goin for the trip but the trip can of course be improved on la..n i wan to thank frens tat really brighten up my day..hmm...grace and diana were there to talk to, mala, muneera n noorie were funny so i really enjoyed myself wid them.like buyin e happy meal n played wid the toy..we like so small kids la..but it kind of revived my childhood memories..damn fun la..

i cannot read myself la..little tragedies can quickly bring me to my lowest breaking point tat i will start to cry n the little tings tat can make me forget the sadness n automatically bring a smile to my face. hmm..crazy la me..

ok la..gtg now..juz wished mala bon voyage as she is leavin for spain tonite..fandy will b leavin too for japan..hmm he enjoy la..celebrate bdae in japan..haha...nite ppl..sweet dreams..

remember in tis world of confusions n deceptions, u really had to analyse usin ur mind rather than listenin to ur heart..ur heart may deceived u sumtime..

helloozzz....its tuesday...time is passin damn bloody fast la..like nobody business..was out to skol today so early juz to get my art package..den met Fiza after 1 week i tink..misses her alot...talked stuffs wid her n laughed..hmm..den saw grace also after 1 week..n was updated wid lots of nice n crazy stories..quite fun and kind of impressed wid sum tings..hmm....she is up to many stuffs..n get to noe abt sum pplbeta..gd..tings r advancing further n beta..hmm..i juz need to get the key to solve tis beautiful mystery or shld i call puzzle?ahahha...

went to watch movie wid dad n sis today..for e first time, watched a maly horror film called congkak..i dun noe whether it was scary or not..but i was really scared n shouted at one part...tat was damn scary...n den at some parts, they were so funi tat i tink i laughed the loudest and hit my head on the back seat lots of time. i tink the ppl will tink tat i m crazy..so i dun noe to say if its a horror or comedy movie..i shall figure it out myself..

didnt do much today..was reading thru art notes..kind of a lot to digest but i understand it beta..hmm i m really tryin my best la..hope i can most of the contents in my head..hmm...trying..today kamal was accompanying me most of the time..aahha..i have such a gd fren ah...ahahha...veri hungry now..didnt eat since morning...haiz..i will die soon...ok tats dramatic..

ok tml will be the tour wid amanda heng..hmm gettin prepared for it..but i m scared of sketchin se..i m trully damn bad in it..will make a fool out of myself den.haiz...will try my best den...

ok la..gtg now..wan go n rest..veri sleepy n wan sleep..but my stomach is growling..i m upset..no food..i wan eat...hungry hungry..veri hungry...ok i will find food now..got to rush den..c ya again..nite..sweet dreams..(:

hmmm 22 more days to mye n i like so kanchong now..was lookin thru the H1 a levels paper last yr and i was kind of amazed wid the smart ppl who came up wid the paper...damn Smart..i muz really applaud and bow to their intelligence..or mayb could be as smart as them if i really put my heart n soul into it...i was stunned by the questions asked..either i didn't encounter it b4 or STM...hmmm...the disappointment of not being able to answer the questions really woke me to study hard..i muz strive to achieve my goals la..hmm now its 1st of June..time will pass so fast tat u dun need to wait or count for it to pass..

hmm...finally heard Darwy's voice after 1 week..ahhaha...grace will b comin back soon..hmm...sure got lots of juicy stories to share wid us..ahahah...i have bio lesson tml, bio workshop on tues n art tour on wed..hmm fully booked for half of the week...hmm...should spend time more wisely la..ahah..i cms veri serious now ah..ahah...i tink i have always been serious in times of emergency ahahah...sumtimes have no sense of urgency se..got to change my bad habits..but old habits are hard to die..

have been listenin to these songs frequently these days such as Take a bow from Rihanna, Stay with me from Danity Kane and Since you've been gone by Day 26..quite impressed wid rihanna coz the song really was awesome la..it really depicts a real life story..ahah...the other two songs quite sad la..though rihanna's song also quite sad coz the gal being deceived by the guy..gals r often at e advantage ah..sad life.ahah...i shld try to make a difference den..

raindrops fall from everywhere
i reach out for you but you are not there
i stood waiting in the dark
with your picture in my hand
story of a broken heart
i dun wan noe wats life widout you

damn emo se..ahah...ok la.gtg now..will continue to work hard n mug for mye..hmm jiayous to others too..we can do it..ahahha...gdnite ppl...sweet dreams..(: