helo..ok lets follow grace...Hola or halo..i also dun noe la...ahha...finally the day i really had been waiting had arrived..so now i m like a free bird..ok i shall not cast an evil eye on myself coz once i said tat, tings may juz not turn out tat way..so i m now going back to track..i have lost track for so many times n now is the time i need to wake up and focus.. malay on thurs, op on friday den followed by bio..ooolalalaa..i m juz NOt prepared for all these exams..when will i bid goodbye to exams...alamak...i m dead la..

so finally i can rest at home after skol n not bothered abt shop even though u do play a part in tat..but now i shall juz wash my hands off tat shop for a while n concentrate on my studies.. was happy to hear tat munirah had a superb date wid aizat..ahaha..cool yaw...ahah...hope everything will juz turned out fine for her...

my life still screwed...ahaha...still waiting for the rite one...where is my prince charming? where is the horse tat he is riding on? could he have lost his way? ahha..lets wait for a while ya...ahahah...i m crazy...yes but i dare not go for anything called love for now coz my life is at STAKE..and i dun wan go thru wadever i go thru b4...aahah...it juz hurt badly...still trying to get over everything but the past is still haunting me..ahah..come on sabby, jaiyous..dun tink abt that..whoossshhh..keep those tots aside n LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST....or VIVA LA VIDA....cool huh...

miss talking to my frens..looks like i m losing them...ahaha..pls dun leave me k...i need u guys..even if we r in different class next yr, we muz go break together and sit together waiting for assembly to strat k..ok..promiss..lets hook our pinkies...

ok la..gtg now..hasta lavista baby...prince charming, pls cum fast but NOT NOW...

ok juz reached home at 12 30am..its morning now...went to shop straight after skol....was pretty tired but tried to put up wid everythin wid a smile on my face...was talking wid didi mala n didi usha n my jaanu..ahaha...den tok to uncle sadiq n uncle din..ahhaha...wendy, we dun tok nonsense k...ahaha..u tink too much into it ahah...we were juz talkin abt business..it was boring but i tried to like the topic..i really wonder...everytime they c my face, they will tok abt business...come on, is the word business printed on my forehead? ahah..sum even woder if me n sis are super women...coz we went to skol early morning, den rushed to shop n went back home late..haiz..i guess its part of our routine la..

was amazed by jaanu's wrok which is displaying the clothes..it was awesome..now i m feelin veri feverish..had a bad sore throat n a nose block..perhaps i had catch a flu...oh tats bad se..i will b sitting for exams real soon n i cannot afford to b sick at tis time..got my new spectacles cozi broke my preious one..i m so clumsy la..now tis new specs is not tat nice la..perhaps i have not got adjusted to it yet..it looks like a goggle to me..ahaha..ok i cannot deny tat my eyes are big but i dun need a goggle rite..

hmm...today mahesh was pretty quiet..was really stunned by him keeping quiet coz he will be the one to tok a lot..really wondered wad happened to him...so msged him n found out smth..hmm...wads the bloody difference btw a boss n and an employee? arent they working together so the shop will do well...wads wrong when i treat all the workers as my family members n get so familiar wid them..i had fun wid them, working together n learnin smth from each of them...i juz dun get it..an employer is also an employee...ok..i dun noe wad u guys might b tinking..perhaps there are certain ranks..wth...so i asked him wads wrong..so angry today? he replied me..sorry but i m a worker so i cannot b familiar wid u guys..den i tot ohk..so tis is how he tot abt us..ok den..so i replied him..ohk den..lets be professional from today onwards...n i m not A bloody BOSS...i dun give pays to others...i played a lot in shop that i dun even contribute to anything..haiz..nvm..i lost another gd fren to sum stupid analogy...

ok den..got to rush now..wan go bath n sleep..not sure if i will be goin to skol tml..coz i m not feeling well..my body aching...ok la..hasta lavista baby..(=

helloooo..oki its been a while since i blogged...has not been having time for myself..it cms tat i really have NO life...first of all, have to welcome a new guest to my family..my little baby sister..ahah..yes a baby sister who is borned on the 8 of Oct...felt happy coz she is there to accompany my mom now..perhaps, i may have my freedom now n be freed from the cage...ahah..i sounded so pathetic ahah...she is veri tiny...but i love her skin..so smooth n her cheeks...can bite se..ahaha...kept making her irritated n she will cry which caused my mom to be tired coz had to take care of her whole nite..ahah..sad but its LIFE, mom...

yups...has been veri bz wid my pw, bio n malay..received my results back n was veri disappointed...i guess i muz really fulfil the promise i made to mr saw...had to say gdbye to certain stuffs that can really spare me sum time to be alone n not packed wid lots of stuffs..was veri exhausted and i cannot say it to anyone..not even my parents..i had to disclose it to sum closer frens of mine..i juz had to take it but i guess i m veri close to my breaking point now...pretty stressed up wid lots of stuffs...i guess i have to juz bear wid it for the time being..i guess being the eldest has lots of responsibilities to take up..haiz...tis is juz killing me..but i really have nth to say...many frens asked me, Biler nak game? wad shld i say? my mom is not in the condition to go to shop coz my baby sis still needs her..n she is not feeling well..felt bad for sis coz she has been helping a lot n i m doing nth...haiz...i m really sorry if i have been whining but really..i have so many tings up in my sleeves..n i m way too back for my h1 subjects which made me worried..ooolallala...

i juz wish that God will juz give me strength to carry on strongly and be happy wid wadever i facedin life even if its sorrows...to my pw members, i m really sorri coz i really felt tat i have been neglecting u guys and not contributing a lot...i m veri sorri..i will soon be freed from the load on my shoulder n be wid u guys..im tryin hard to divide time but its juz not working the way i wan..thus to achieve that, i may have to sacrifice sum tings...pls give m time although i noe thats not much time left..im really sorri...deepest sorry ...

ok guys..its like 6 mins b4 1am..i have gtg..i still have skol tml..tata...hasta lavista baby..

oki...hiyie bebs, ahah....ok i juz got home from shop like at 1.30AM...cool or wad? its not like i m enjoyin wid wad i m doing..its juz tat i m pretty tired wid all these stuffs but i m juz doing tis for my mom..i guess she is not in the state to travel lot from one place to another..i m not trying to be a filial daughter but i guess tats my responsibilty as a daughter...but really, tis is juz so tiring..i have lots piling up.. i have pw, art and malay juz down there and on the other hand, my responsibilty...guess i m stuck wid lots of stuffs now..i really need a break, want shout it out but where could i get it..i m really afraid of losing concentration in studies coz i kept goin to shop to help out..its like really my second home la..haiz...its really rare to c me smiling these few days..lots of tings going on in my head..cannot express it too much...have to shut it all in my petite heart..haiz..i tink u might be tinking like there's a lot of sighin in my blog today..

ok wads up today? went to shop as usual...saw mr singam or dunnoe tis tamil teacher...was teasing me as usual..wad to do? helped out and ate a lot..its like i ate a lot when i m feeling down..den went to expo to check on stuffs..made frens wid the stall holders...like the food and drinks..they r fun ppl juz tat they are like so much older than me..so much experienced la..so juz listened to them la..ahha...den have a best fren whose name in Uncle Din...i disturbed him alot coz i dun cms to have a fren for forever..so tis guy is always there to tease me n me disturbing him back...den now became closer to mahesh and knew more abt him..like he is from nepal, the only son among 3 sisters..came to singapore to study..blablabla..den today, i asked him a question like" don't u feel tired doing all these stuffs and study at the same time? if i were like u and i m supposed to go to nepal and study n work, i will definitely cry and flee from there to singapore!!" listening to me, he started laughin coz that was his reaction at first but then, he changed his perceptions slowly and became strong and tried to stand on his own feet and not depend on his parents..i was amazed coz i dun now if i can really be like him...den in my head, i was tinking if i have been taking life for granted coz these ppl are really having a difficult time here and they r living life like forever...no complains abt circumstances being unfair to them but here, we r always complainin..guess i still have a long way to go and learn a lot..haiz...studies, life, wat the hell...there are like alot lot lot to learn man...will i have the strength to learn all of that...

hmm....on friday, heard a pretty bad news..mr ng was saying that these promos's results was like that bad and disheartening results ever for 07A6...pretty shocked but i kind of expected it for myself la..coz the papers were pretty difficult...not sure if the papers were difficult or i didnt spend lots of time revising..got myself to blame la..

ok ppl, i m pretty exhausted and lethargic now..many stuffs are playing in my head like a video recorder..i m like losing myself agin to these thoughts..get pretty upset and happy at a certain time..sumtimes could get really crazy and strart doing weird stuffs...guess these thoughts had got into my head at the highest temperature that caused me to react like tat..den i m way behind for pw...i have to run after it now..i guess i m lost again in tis world la...

ahaha...ok ppl, i guess i have to go now..veri tired and really needs my sleep..really!!!hasta lavista ppl...oh yes..i m still waiting for tat prince charming of mine ahahha...(=

hiyie...ok its like been sum sum time since i update my blog ya..ok first of all, wish all the muslim ppl in this world Eid Mubarak....bidding goodbye to the 1 month of fating and welcoming a new yr for us ahahha...its like onli yesterday we started fasting and it ended today...time really passed so fast without us knowin it...though its Eid Mubarak, but it really does not feel like one..not sure how to explain or describe the feelings but its juz tat Eid is no more like wad it used to be..for me now, its like boring and not as useful it was to me like before..however, i m still trying to enjoy it...come on, i can enjoy it rite..

next up, mom juz reminded me of smth that i really dread to do..guess wad? ASKING FORGIVENESS FROM MY ELDERS???? yes..she juz reminded me of tat...i was like WHAT??? its been like sum time since i did it..i noe tat sorry is not the hardest word to say but its juz tat i dun wan to apologise face to face..not becoz i m shy(i m not SHY!!) but..how to put it in words? hmm...its juz tat even after apologising to them, i might juz repeat my mistakes again..furthermore, y muz i juz apologise on tis day when i make mistakes for almost everyday? the word sorry muz be a regular word, i tink...but for tis asking forgiveness, i would rather ask for forgiveness when i m praying la..nevertheless, i will not disappoint my mom and will try to make her happy by doing it la..so i muz do it rite..haiz sabby has no choice..!!!

hmm ya...so wad shld i be doing tml? guess up to my normal routine..will not be going out for celebration..ok i got the reason for not celebrating Eid..yes..losing 3 loved ones juz make me have no mood to celebrate... have been veri bz wid h1 and art..oh no....h1 with 4 periods is a killer, trust me..its not even one hour that my soul n mind left my body and disappear..i was so sleepy that it will be karyee to yawn first, next me and lastly will be hayati..we take turn se..ahha..to entertain myself n them, i sang them a song, veri melodiously..it goes like...aihiyaiya i m a little butterfly..next song will be like im a barbie girl, in a barbie world..ahahha...they will either laugh at me or tickled me..not to forget hit my head wid paper..walau..they shld be lucky to get me as an entertainer..ahaha...

ok folks, i juz returned from shop and pretty lethargic..but i made new frens from nepal..one is mahesh and another one is..ok i forgot..ahahah...a lot of tings happen in shop today..was selling clothes to tis family when tis aunt told me tat her son asked for my number..and she kept asking it from me..guess wad i say? i was like..."hmm...sori i dun play tis kind of ting" wid my blur face...walau..customers, pls dun scare me...i m juz a small girl la..still studying...and then when i carried Aafreen, they even tot that she is my DAUGHTER? wad??? do i look that old...ahahha..crazy la...

ok den..will report more interestin news tml on the NOOSE..ahah..b4 i go, i wish to wish my late grandma, Eid Mubarak, miss having u here to celebrate and gdbye...tata guys...hasta lavista baby...(=