hihi....oki its been sum time i updated my blog..have been reading frens' blogs which caused me to update my blog..tot of changin my blogskin but was pretty lazy la..ahhaa...ok the wedding is finally over but i really want more..i juz could not get over the feel of wedding..the feeling was juz so warm and so nice la..coz its like our first time preparing so much for this wedding..and its juz over like tat... quite sad but good tings have to end fast ah..ahah...

so wad had been happening the last few days..was bz on mehendi day...which means putting henna for the bride la..but many were gettting their hands drawn too..so i dun missed my chance too la..den had sum wedding customs goin on for my god bro who is the groom..the bride's side had to sing song to welcome the groom..den they will have a chance to put henna on his right hand' last finger..if they get to put henna, den they can demand anything from the groom..


then e next day was the nikah which means the solemnization ceremony..we were from the groom's side so we were known as the bharati..each of us were holding on to a tray of gifts for the bride..whehn we entered the cc, songs were being played to welcome us..headed to the stage for the solemnization ceremony to get started...was sitting and listenin to all the reading of the verses b4 the kadi or qualified person who solemnised the wedding.. den after the grrom and bride agreed to all terms and conditions and said, I DO!, they had to feed each other milk, banana and peanuts..tats part of our custom la..but really thebride was really really pretty...i guess wad ppl often sai dthat brides will look pretty on their big day is really true..den could felt the love oveflowing when sum ppl cried when the grrom said tathe will take care of his bride in gd and bad times..tat was really sad coz the groom's mom was crying non-stop..tears of happiness i guess..come on, who is not happy to c ur loved one being happily married? hahaha...after eating, it was nachle time...me, yaya and shaqi and uncle malik were the first one to start the dance floor..and were making a fool out of ouselves on the stage..although sum were clappin for us but sum were smiling cheekily..

yesterday was the day tat i really enjoyed myself..i was a part time photographer for yesterday..i took the camera from bhaiya khalim and took photographs and videos of the bride and grooms and also of dances..it was pretty fun..den had to serve the king and queen for the day...although it was a tiring job but it was indeed a joy to do it for my loved ones..den had a lot of fun dancing and entertainin the mass..however, nearly to e end, the cd stopped and we sang and danced till the end..ppl applaused...and tat really made us so happy..i really did enjoy myself and i wan more of it...oh yes i forgot abt the food...there were like 12 main dishes and abt 8 deserts..there were lots of food..i wan get all the pics so i can upload them..but i guess it will take sum time la...so be patient k..oki tats for the wedding...

oki la..will update and upload the pics soon k..so hasta lavista babies..sweet dreams...(=

hiyie...finally after the case being dismissed, evrything went back to normal...haiz...yesterday was definitely a long long and tiring day for me...was so tired after dancing repeately to the same old songs tat we were tired listenin to it..its as if we are eatin the same food over n over again...we cms to have mastered all the steps in the dances but den when we tried to do it properly, there will surely be flaws...yesterday was a meeting where we have discussions b4 the actual wedding..tryin to find all the areas tat need to be improved n wad each indivual can contribute in making the wedding memorabel..like collectin the sehra bandi, the decorations on the car and everythin la...everyone members of the family were present..sum were so tired tat they slept...ahaha..i have neva seen such a weddin meeting b4 like tis one..perhaps ppl are getting kanchong as its the first daughter of the family getting married so everythin shld be EXTRAORDINARY...i guess tis wedding will be bomb la...will be memorable too...juz prayed tat nth bad shld happen on tat day...pls...coz we really put in a lot of effort in it...ahha...

so yesterday meeting was held at the bride's house and it ended at 2am..can u imagine tat? i wonder wat the blabber tat it ended so late...so while the elders were bz wid their meeting, we, the young ones were at the void dec, getting entertained by sabira, sabina, jasmine and shaqirah..i swtiched on different songs n asked them to dance to these songs..n they were making a fool out of themselves...i can therefore conclude tat my cousins are drama mama ppl la..but it was fun juz sitting out and talkin tings out la..

so went back home wid sameer n saniyya...reached home nearly at 3am..den went to bed at 4am...i then realised tat there has not been a day that i stayed at home...really..most of the time i will be out, either go to shop or dance practises at ana's place..i guess today my fate is veri bad tat i still have to go for dance practises again..its ok...juz bear it for another one week den dance to the fullest n give my best..den its OVER..but i guess dancing is way of expressing myself..its an ART...so ok la..had sum fun doin it but when i get too tired, i rather sit down n plug in my ears...

ok la...gtg now..sabby is pretty tired now but she still has to drag herself AGAIn..ahahha...hey not complainin k..juz telling n explaing my fate to u..ahaha...hasta lavista babies...smile always k..(=

ahhahah...finally after a long wait to say bye bye to a levels n bio, i finally got the chance to say goodbye..but i tink there are still more to cum next yr and i muz be prepared for it..b4 the bio paper, i was feelin pretty ez but i felt so upset after the paper...i could feel that i hijacked most of the questions and tats disappointing..wad could i do?...i juz remained silent while the others started talkin abt the paper..i juz hope i could make it for bio..i dun wan fail or resit for it..tats bad la..

on the night b4 bio, i could not juz shut my eyes n go to sleep..it was as if casper was disturbin me n caused me to be awake for at least 2 hrs..i could only get to sleep peacefully at 4 which is one hr away from my usual wake up time...luckily i had dai to call me to wake up coz i noe i might oversleep n missed my paper..den hayati too called to wake me up...fandy called me to wish me n it really touched me coz i tot thay might have juz forgotten abt it as they had already taken their maths paper...so was really damn touched wid fandy, ashley and nazirul wishing me luck..n not to forget, teacher grace who msged me gd luck..ahaha..thnx teacher...u touched me too..ahahha..n nirah too...ben was encouraging me wid his 4 long msges abt doin well for the paper..n i shld not be scared of the paper..he was damn nice la...really tryin to calm me coz on my way to skol, i was so scared...i did my revision but i guess its not enuf..hopefully everythin will be ok la..

ok went to cuzzy's house in a veri bad mood due to the unhappiness from the bio paper in the morning...was not dancin well..den were supposed to do another dance when i finally spoke up n disagreed to the idea coz we r short of time and i tink we juz need to brush up on our first dance...but i guess tings got worst when i left the house to help Farah..tings got pretty bad tat tears were shed n feelings were hurt n everything..was pretty shocked wid all these happenings when i set foot back again in the house..but i kind of expect tis la..ahaha..but hopefully now since everyone has speak out, there shld be no mor epolitics coz i m tired of tis..i juz dun noe y sum ppl can b so bitchy..i dun noe if i m usin e rite word but now the case is over n the criminal has been acquited..victim was compensated..ahaha...

so tats all for today..was pretty hurt when u c ur loved ones being bullied but could not do anythin...was helpless but if could juz rake up tings, it will juz hurt those hearts and will caused them to jump high n mad...but come on, sabby is not tat mean la..i can be gd to u but dun take advantage coz it is juz not gd la..ahah...

oki den...finally sumone found out tat i m not happy hahaha..gd job in solvin part of the mystery...but today was definitely a bad bad day for me...haiz..hope tml will be a sunny one filled wi dlove n happiness...so i m still finding for my happiness but sumone said tat i wun get it..meany creature se..nvm..i will still search n wait for it to cum la..ahahha...

ok den...tata...nite nite and sweet dreams...miss my frens la...oki la..hasta lavista babies...ahahha..n i forgot to say that i m sumone's god mom when he is like older than me..ahhaa...(=

i guess its been sum time since i updated my blog..seeing my frens updating their blog, i also had the urge to do so...so wads up these days? to tell u frankly, i had been bz wid the dance practices..dead tired but i have to do it..i cannot complain much coz sabira too had class n drivin to catch up wid..so was prety dead bz wid these dancin tingy tat i guess i have to really reject offers after offers to go out wid my frens n slack..the first time was when fandy asked me to go to ecp coz the others will be there..but i had to be at my cuzzy's house for dance...definitely had to reject tat offer...second was chan chan's bdae where my frens were out to celebrate but sabrina had to go to shop after skol to check on the workers n den rushed to cuzzy's place AGAIN for DANCE.. fandy called me again askin if i were free to go n celebrate chan chan's bdae, u surely can guess wads my answer...i have to keep rejecting offers n tat really made me feel so bad...i cms to be losing most of my frens due to tis tingy..i mayb complainin a lot but u guys may not understand wad e hell m i goin thru...i still have to sit for my bio paper 1...u guys might tink its chicken feet but i have been scoring badly for mcqs dun noe for wad reasons...worst come to worst, i will juz leave the dance tingy..i will not be a part of it..really...

saniyya os already one month plus old...and now she is veri pampered by everyone..ppl will buy clothes for her from almost verywhere they went to..sum from sydney, london n thailand...she is loved by everyone..n i m so happy abt tat coz she is the youngest in the family and she has all the attention..the onli thing she can do now is cry, eat, sleep and dun forget her basic routine..u shld noe wad..the one tat i dundescribe here but we also do...try crackin ur head la..ahhaha...now she is tryin to talk but unfortunately we dun understand her baby language...den when we talked, she will try to understand but its impossible la..ahahha...she is bcumin fatter everyday n cuteri muz say...hopefully she keeps growing and growing....so big n pretty...

yesterday was a veri bad day for me...i have no bloody reason to cry but when i hugged winnie and tried to sleep, i got reminded of the past n the happenings now...tat really caused me to cry so badly..perhaps its been a long long time since i shed a tear...i juz cannot be the person that they wan me to bcum..i need time..time to really change myself too bcum like tat...i m myself..when i m childish, ppl keeps sayin tings like sabrina, u r already 18 n u r tinkin like tis...shameful...den when i get into my seriousness, ppl disliked me tinkin tat im too arrogant...tis ic annot bcum, tat i cannot bcum, den wad u wan me to bcum...its veri difficult..i have been putting on a smile even when ppl insulted me coz of my behavious or etiqutte, coz i wan show a brave front..but when the insults keep on piling up, it bcums so heavy tat i juz cannot bear to listen to everyting..i cannot find anyone to share it wid...ppl are juz so bz so i juz have to keep in my heart..n once my heart finds it too suffocating, i will juz break down..i alreay promised myself tat i wun get influenced by ppl's opinions but thses opinions are following me n i cannot escape from it..as if i can shut the door to these opinions..i accepted these opinions but its damn difficult to change myself.. if grandma is here, she will be there tolisten to me n consoled me..yesterday was really a teary night for me..firstly, had to break down all alone and secondly, no one is there to listen..i m not complainin if no one is there to listenbut pls la..give me time to adjust n dun keep repeating it to me..n stop comparin me to ppl..i m different...everyone is different...y can't they juz understand me...when they compared me, i will get angry wid myself coz i cannot bcum like those ppl..i m being put in a difficult situation...

i was tinkin..y muz i change bcoz of these ppl..y m i forced to bcum who i m not...y can't they juz accept me for who i m...m i too difficult to be accepted...i m also a livin ting...have feelings...but no one in tis world...so now i m not gonna care abt ppl though it mayb hurting but i rather hurt ppl now coz i have been goin thru all these shits...n no one understand...u guys always wan me to be a fairy like n juz listen widout objecting, now i will change n bcum more insensitive...if tats wad they wan me to bcum...keeping quiet is not the way in tis cruel world...den later ppl will complain abt my behaviour again.. let them tok...k..i will be dumb from now on..too frustrated wid stuffs..sori guys i m not being emo..i m juz lettin eveytin out n loose..

oki den...i m so tired complainin..i may go insane wid tis goin on...hasta lavista ppll...love ya..(= keep smiling no matter wad..tats wad i m gonna do..their opinions will neva affect my happiness..

hmmm...finally i can bid goodbye to PW!!!lets do it officially k...GOODBYE PW!!! REALLY WISH TO C U AGAIN BUT DEN I HAVE A CHANGE OF HEART AND MIND SO NNNNOOO!!!

today was rather a sad day for me..ok there were a few reasons behind this...firstly,its becoz i will miss pw and my members...my fun, irritating. furious, slacky members...secondly, its confirmed that o7A6 will no more exist in MI..pretty sad and wid tis reality coz it cms tat we went thru a lot tis yr n time was pretty short...thirldy, all of us will be separated into different classes and we may not even c each other la..except for if we have same periods of breaks n pe..lastly, mr ng is leaving the skol..i was suprised la coz he was one of the best teachers esp in geog..but he said he will still be there for us uz if we need his help..hmm tats abt it...

today went to skol to sort out the GPF..den did smth for the members of LIVE STRONG..smth memorable and exciting i tink..ahaha...i will miss my LADY MARMALADE N MY HOT DOG PARTNERS...ahahha...tats stupid but really no more fun la now...den went home to take a short nap den headed to shop to buy groceries...everytime i go there is juz to buy groceries..ahahha...i guess tat written in my fate or forehead...den of course met those uncles..ahah..wendy, THEY R NOT HORNY UNCLES LA...aahha...sum even lectured me of studying hard and dun find bf now..ahaha..concentrate n focus to be sumone in the future..ahahha...okok..i get the gist ah...study n no BF..okok...

saw other frens tat i made there and really joked ard wid the sisters in my shop...its all dirty stuffs la.. they r polluting my innocent mind se..ahaha...innocent se...ahahha...we were laughing so much tat sum other shop's ppl were staring at us..den we stopped laughing, they asked y we stopped..nvm..i tink they wan noe abt the topic tat tickled us but its an inside talk..ahah...its parental guidance ahahha...n i juz got to noe smth and it really shocked me...no words to describe...

oki den so went back home all alone..wid my foot hurt, wearing tat stupid shoes which bit my toes..my small tiny toes....ahahha...its painful se when get in touch wid water.. the skin peels off..i will kill the shoes...ahhaha..oki den i juz got reminded tat i have to attend a seminar tml..wad???? dun noe wads its gonna be about...hope smth fun so i can have fun..

oki la...i m tired so i gtg now...hasta lavista baby n a veri sweet dreams to all...

ooolalalla....n its the first of november today..can really see tat time really passed mile nobody's business ah...and in another 4 days, i will b sitting for my a levels' bio...scary....but i have got to be prepared for it la...yesterday had op...and really alhamdulilah or thank god tat we ended it well n tats for pw...cool huh...however, we still have i&r but its onli till next week, thurs tat i can really REALLY bid my goodybe to PW!!! definitely jumped for joy coz pw has been sucking up my blood and eating my brains nerves and tissues...ahaha..but definitely will miss working wid my members...though we may argued and do not support each other, i cannot deny tat we did have sum moments that we really adored and enjoyed...really will miss those moments but will keep them as memories...in my diary..in my heart...

remember the day tat u guys have to follow me walkin to seletar airport even though we could take bus...u guys were mislead by me but still we laughed out hearts out while walking in tat hot weather wid ppl laughing at our stupidity..sorry ya but i really enjoyed tat moment..ahaha...
wid o7A6 disappearing into thin air next yr, i will definitely miss my other classmates...all will be displaced and we had to make new frens..i juz realised tat i really got closer to my classmates tis yr..i regretted not knowing them in pre u 1 but i muz say that i m lucky tat now at least i know them rite...ahaha...thnx guys for being my frens and be part of 07A6..really had lots of memories...was reminded of the times when we had our class bonding day ard singapore cbd area..tats was quite cool doing childish but yet fun activities..

ok den, i have yet to revise on bio coz i placed more focus on other stuffs..i regretted for doing tat but i m so tired tat i juz cannot concentrate on my bio..and my phone was corrupted today..had sum problems..tats sumtimes could not msg...sorry to ppl who msg but did not receive my replies..ahahha...

ok den...ms sabrina banu is exhausted now and she needs rest..ahaha...lots of tat..ahaha..hey wait..i tink hols will be dead boring for me..rotting at home..oh no..i WAN SKOL!!!! ahhaha...ok den..hasta lavista ya...baby...!!! (=