today was neither a happy day nor a sad day for me..i was juz so frustrated tat i kept my mouth shut...tings were goin so absurd tat i juz shoot out wadever inside my head to the person but tat person got so angrywhich caused me to be in hot soup...i was juz keepin quiet coz i noe tat we both are positve poles and we will rebel so i didnt wan to say anythin but if u keep addin oil to spark a fire, i will definitely be heated up rite...for now, i m juz swallowin everythin...there were like so many hurtful tings tat were being raked up whenever tis argument occurs..tat sum tings really broke my heart..u c ah, everytime tat person scolded me n broke my heart, i will always use super glue to bind the tiny pieces of my heart again...but to tink, everytime i put my heart together n put sum strenght n faith to it, it will definitely be broken up into tiny pieces which really takes a lot of time to put on super glue n to heal...so i had a hard time doin it..but this ppl dun understand it at all..whenever i said smth, ppl will tink tat i m bad..i guess tis is written in my destiny...nobody will juz try to understand wad i really wan...okie enuf of tis. so instead of wastin money on buyin super glue for my heart, i rather it be broken into many pieces, many tiny pieces den i will bind it..now its beta to make it numb, i swear...i have been hearing tings tat really hurt myself a lot and i have no words to describe it..so now, i guess i m juz be strong..ahaha...
okie la..tats all for today..anyway new year will be here soon...n i really wished tat all these stupid tings will end soon...i wan smth tat can really brightened myself up...i dun wan be so disappointed wid life tat made me regret of living in tis world..ahah...okie hasta lavista ppl...sweet dreeams....(=
hiyie...time to update my blog...okie i guess its gonna be boring post la...tis whole week has been on art mainly...didnt do much but really, i m veri scared for the upcoming yr..i guess its gonna be a tough yr and a hectic one..wid my art to cope...i m really havin a hard time wid art..i have really poor art skills and i have the guts to take a levels art whcih is hundred time complex than o levels art...i have promised myself tat i wun touch art ever again in my life after o levels but here i m again wid art...haiz...i guess art will haunt me for the next 1 yr la...ahaha...so wad i m gonna do for art...hahah for the first time, i will be doin installation art..u might tink its cool but i m panickin here...coz i have neva ever paint on a canvas b4 n now i m doin installation..i m skipping lots of steps for art se...its really scary..i juz wan pass wid gd grades...i dun wan disappoint my teachers se...okie enuf of art la..ahahha....
next up, so wads up wid my life tis while..aahaha....i can say there is nth much goin on man..i guess i might be leading a boringest life on tis world...surrounded by four walls and accompanied by my songs n hp..tats all...i really wonder if all parents are as protective as my parents...i dun understand..i wan do a lot of tings but sum hurdles are present tat i need to confront and overcome..i guess i m still a baby in my parents' eyes..i m already 18 for gdness sake but den..i look so small tat ppl mistook me for sec 4...walau...ppl may say its gd to look young for my age but i tink it may b an advantage but also a disadvantage ya...so recently, mrs siti asked usin art room, so y did u guys wan to take a levels??? definitely the common answeris tat we wan go univerisity..but wad degree u wan take, the next question...i was tinking hard abt it coz i m really ambitious but its not gd to be so ambitious...for me,i really wan c and admire the volcanoes..tat is life for me coz i wan to travel n visit these volcanoes..n mayb at the mean time help the less developed countries..i dun wan be stuck here..but there are sacrifices i need to make to achieve my goals..if i were to b a geologist, i have to leave spore and my family..n i may not be able to work here coz there is not many job varieties in spore...so i really have to tink from now onwards..i muz have plan A and also plan B...i muz not laze ard...i muz do smth tat will make my parents proud of me and give happiness to them..m i tinkin too much or m i too ambitious? i also dun noe..i juz wan do smth tat i like..it may not be a realistic goal but i wan to make it real..how ah...ahaha...
okie tats abt my ambition..i wan make a lot of frens and travel ard wid my own hard earned money...i wan get a true prince charmin after travellin a lot..yupz ahahha...so now mi tinkin too much of the future..come on ppl, in a few yrs time, we will be standin on the road, tinkin and regretting of wad happened in the past so y not plan for the future...ahahh..i m tryin to be a a matured tinker for tis...okie for now, i wan watch a lot of movies b4 skol reopens..but i cannot forget tat i have exams soon after skol reopens so time to study sab sab...ahhaha...no more dreaming...ahhaa...
okie den..gd nite and sweet dreams darlings...hasta lavista...smile always..tink like aman of action ad act like a man of thought..by Henri Bergson..
hiyieee.....hmm....yesterday was really a tring day for me even if i didn't do much yesterday..oki let me explain..firstly, was sleepin so soundly tat my mom had to wake me up....juz to say that we need to go to Geylang market to get groceries..its either me or my sis, Shaqi to go...oki i gave in coz shaqi can take care of Saniyya at home...so went to geylang wid mom and aunty rekha...woowo...i tell u...i really didn;t like the smell..really..although it was fascinating looking and admiring different types of fishes and prawn wid unique names..it was quite fun la..but then the worst ting was there were many ppl an dthe floor was so wet...i was worried that the water on the floor will get onto me..den mom bought 5kg of mutton and ikg of prawn..had to carry tat big, heavy bag coz mom was already tired shoppin ard for stuffs..i enjoyed the food the most...although it was simple dishes like asam pedas and longs beans...i had a gd time eatin it..coz i dun get to eat lots of malay food at home..mostly it will be curry...but definitely, at the end of the day, i smelt like fish, mutton and chicken...had to get a quick bath later on se...
Den later on in the evning, had to go to accompany mom to the supermarket....haiz..it was a long shoppin trip la..i tink women are the fussiest beings on this planet earth..they will check everythin....i juz could not tahan la even though i will be a women one day but then i guess i dun have tat patience..it was sumtimes frustrating...tats is y ppl said that men have to be veri patient when they are out wid women..tats really TRUE...den mom and sis went to look for Saniyya's milk while i took a rest outside the supermarket wid the trolley filled wod lots of plastic bags...was waiting for them for nearly half an hour tat really pissed me off...ended up seein old ppl workin in KFC and pulling trashes out to the bin behind..i was feelin sad lookin at them even though i knew tat they worked to earn a livin for themselves but i would neva wan to c my parents work so hard like tat..it will really shatter my heart...especially when i c sum workin as cleaners at the hawker centres...
ok la...enuf of tat,,so the whole day spent in doing marketing for the house..haiz...life ah..ahah..oki den hasta lavista ppl...all the best to those who went for the marathon....jiayouz...(=
