hhhheellloo..hahha...was tinking of sumth juz la..hmm it goes like tis..
My life...lead by me, not alone, but accompany by many..however suffer all alone..hhahah..is tat true? i also dun noe..but it cms true le..hhah...in juz a few hrs, tings will juz changed..haiz...in sum ways but not sure if its gd or not..dun wan talk abt it la..i have no idea how it will be in the future..hhaha...juz hope everything wil be fine..pls..

today was disturbed by sum bloody joker at 6am dun noe for sum bloody reasons..it juz made me fused..hahha..new word...den need go skol for consultation again but today mr imran was late..so had to revise alone until keith came to read on Gis..den went to leave wid keith when mr imran called to find me..haiz...he taught, taught n repeated again n again juz to make me understand la..pity but i really need to understand everything..he was even laughing at me la..wat onli..

den after bio, went for Gis..tired se..i nearly dozed off..my eyes were juz waiting to close..was msging him most of the time..den returned home early to get ready for a brand new day tml..haiz...is it really a brand new day? i have no damn idea but i juz wan it to turn out well..was still msging him, competing wid him for sum stupid stuffs..it was dumb la..i m growing dependent on him..which i dun wan..its reallly making me unsure of wat i wan..haiz...sux la..dun noe wat n whu to trust..i wan smth but i m losing everything..gosh..i m feeling so sick but im trying to hide it..i dun wan to lie to myself but looking at others smiling n beaming wid happiness, it shows tat i shld not show my unhappiness..i m bottling everyting up n no one noes..haizz....i juz wan be strong n accept everyting wid a smile even if i m sad..hahha..so emo se..its my first time i tink being emo..hahha...

it doesnt feel rite nor wrong..i m juz LOSt..i guess tats e rite word to use..ok la..stop being so emo la..it juz doesnt suit u..my inner self arguing wid me..okok..i tink i m juz bcuming so sick la..ok gtg..so guys, lead ur life in ur own way n decisions..dun follow others..it will juz bring u nowhere..trust me..hahha..

ok signing off...tatazzz....