6 of June 1990- the day n yr i was born..hmm dun noe if it was a fortunate day or mayb sum misfortune..hmm...
its e day tat i broke into cries n wails..broke the silence of the house wid funny antics and nonsensical stuffs..wid arguments and quarrels for the last 17 yrs...not matured..still playin a fool..makin a fool out of myself..being veri gullible n naive abt stuffs...neva take tings so seriously unless its really necessary..veri panicky at times..wowo i guess i learnt a lot from the last 17 yrs but since i have STM, i juz dun have any collection of stuffs tat happened..

hmm ok lets start wid wad happen yesterday since its onli yesterday..i can remember it vividly..hmm all i can remember tat i cried most of the time..it was definitely not tears of joy..i was definitely pissed off wid sum ppl...juz made my mood off. when it was 12am on the 6th, i was of course happy n excited coz many frens wished me..it juz made me feel so touched..den when it came to the early morning, tings juz started going awful..i was juz waitin for the clock to tick off at 12am for 7 th of june to come..it was so depressing..i was wishing that my bdae was not yesterday or it juz dun exist.. hmm although we went for bdae dinner at nite, it juz didnt make me happy 100%..its either i m too sensitive n hard hearted n take everythin tat happened like shit..haiz...but i cannot deny tat there were certain stuffs tat really made me happy..for eg the gifts i got from grace n farah n mohsin..they were all tings got to do wid winnie e pooh...cool man...i really loved it la..thnx guys..gifts juz brightened up my day..

ok...mye is juz 2 weeks away..n tis is freakin me out..bio is like so dead for me..so many to learn..haiz..die la..ahha..will try harder la..ok my post for yesterday was so random la..but it was really how i felt yesterday...hmm..perhaps u guts dun noe e whole tingy abt it..but wad i felt yesterday was beyond words to describe..i juz hope no one will go thru it like me..hmm...

ok la..gtg now..see ya...nite ppl..miss my loved ones a lot yesterday..i juz wan sumone to console me yesterday but it cms tat i m left all alone to cry..its damn painful..n i need keep my tears away from everyone..so no one knew wat was i goin thru..haiz..loneliness is not e medicine to sorrows..i hope i wun shed any more tears for now..coz i m damn tired wid it..tears running wild..no one there..it juz sux....ok..nite n sweet dreams..got to catch up on stuffs n frens n gossips perhaps..(: