hmmm...today's morning was really WELCOMED wid such a truth that the onli respond i could give was "oh OK." and then awkward silence between us after the truth bein revealed of sum ppl..wat a SURPRISE..really it was damn an eye opener la..thnx to the ppl who really showed the light to me..hmm..now i m in the state that really do not noe who to believe..tis world is full of liars, deceptions tat it is really difficult to to place my trust on anybody.now, i tink i m juz feeling numb..no more tears to shed i guess..when she told me the truth, tears were nearly wellin up in my eyes..den i was like shld i cry juz for tis small tinyy matter or shld i be strong n faced it..so i decided to be strong..hahah...i guess it was all a facade since morning..gdness..its really great to be really enjoyin tis experience..i m ok la..juz felt unbelievable..now i m tinkin if i m really ok..

ok..its ok..iwonder wat didnt tat person tell me the truth so i wun be led on wid my emotions.thnx ah..really was such a fool for how many months ah..its ok..if tat person is happy wid doin tis, i shld b happy also for tat person..tat person's happiness is mine too..all e best ah..be happy n always smile..i shall juz shut the doors of my emotions, pretendin to be ignorant of such truth and continue bein frens. hmm...i guess tats e best i could do. guess i being over sensitive n take tings too seriously..its my mistake too..

ok tat really made me feel veri low n not hyper of meeting amanda heng..but after a while, i was kind of happy to meet her..she is veri nice to talk to..veri approachable..really learnt a lot today..i m so happy to be goin for the trip but the trip can of course be improved on la..n i wan to thank frens tat really brighten up my day..hmm...grace and diana were there to talk to, mala, muneera n noorie were funny so i really enjoyed myself wid them.like buyin e happy meal n played wid the toy..we like so small kids la..but it kind of revived my childhood memories..damn fun la..

i cannot read myself la..little tragedies can quickly bring me to my lowest breaking point tat i will start to cry n the little tings tat can make me forget the sadness n automatically bring a smile to my face. hmm..crazy la me..

ok la..gtg now..juz wished mala bon voyage as she is leavin for spain tonite..fandy will b leavin too for japan..hmm he enjoy la..celebrate bdae in japan..haha...nite ppl..sweet dreams..

remember in tis world of confusions n deceptions, u really had to analyse usin ur mind rather than listenin to ur heart..ur heart may deceived u sumtime..