Bad news for today: My granduncle juz passed away today! wad the hell la...tis is damn damn sad n frustrating..3 deaths in one month n a yr? i knew tat its all destined but y is it happenin so soon..can't tings juz go slower and let us or me digest one death slowly..granduncle's death is really not expected..he was talkin so much yesterday tat today....goodness...i m not overreactin... its onli within 2 weeks and 3 deaths..i can onli see darkness surroundin my family...tis is really veri veri irritating..i noe i shld not b sayin tis coz God is the one tat writes our fate but den...its like we have to bear to c death after death..is God really showin me tat He can also takes life and he can give life..?i really have no idea..

its rainin now.. rainin veri heavily..its as heavy as my heart is now...pretty upset wid circumstances....

all the tears i shed,
all the sorrow i feel,
all the anger i vent,
it does not make any difference in the end...
tears are juz falling.
i m feeling damn empty inside.

frustrated wid my own self..could not really accept the truth...

i like it in the rain,
no one can see i m crying,
all the pain is hidden when i m dying slowly inside,
i can blame the rain for the tears on my face,
maskin the pain and putting on a facade.

perhaps i m being unreasonable but mayb u r not in my shoes to understand wad i m feelin rite now..if my heart is a glass, i m sure it has broken into tiny bits tat i m losin sum of it due to tis sadness..no one is there to understand my plight, the way i m feelin now..tinkin of the past really really open up the wound inside...addin on it is the demise of my grandparents..is tis ever goona stop?

can i juz be entitled to one day of full happiness, without thinkin of tings tat make me unhappy, worried or anything..juz happiness....is tat too much to ask for?...