hahahah...finally after sum time, i m back to blogging...the past few days were pretty dead for me...furthermore i was too lazy to update so i didnt blog la..tis is the 9th week for skol and next week will be the last week b4 we go for one week hols..and after e hols, will be the promotional exams..isnt tat fast?...

its like the beginning of the year juz started yesterday and now its august..time passed pretty fast widout us realising it..pretty cool coz nearer to hari raya n other hols but den promo is a little big scary for me..its like a bomb..ok i might be exaggerating abt tis..but ya..y is time passin so fast? its like we r runnin after it..n juz keep running...ahah..rush hour...ok i dun noe wads tat for but it reminded me of tis artwork that has bicycle keeps going on..its like moving..i guess from the artwork, it shows tat we really have not much time for ourselves coz most of the time we r chasing over smth..is tis true?...

on mon, teacher dropped a bomb on us as usual..but tis time, when he was nagging n being sarcastic, i was actually laughing. i dunnoe y but i tink i found his sarcasm hilarious..but den, i realised tat i shld not laugh la..nvm...tis laughing at silliest stuffs is already in my genes i guess..

nowadays getting pretty frustrated over stuffs..dunnoe y but i tink i m losing control on my anger management..i may look happy but den its different all inside..i guess recently i might have been a little sensitive and sarcastic to others..there seems to b a change in me..i tink its been like tat ever since jansher tok to me..he was like asking y m i so taking tings funny n being dumb, might have higher chance of being taken advantage la..bla bla. bla....lots of stuffs..n he also asked me y i m tryin to b sumone i m not...i m tryin to figure tat out..but i guess i m too slow to understand tis tings..

sumtimes i may make ppl laugh at my lamest n silliest jokes, but sumtimes i tink they might not be laughing at e jokes but they r laughin at me for being dumb..i dunnoe how i make tat judgement but its like tat...ihave been tryin not to be dumb or gullible, come up wid lamest stuffs but its not in my control to stop all tat..i have been like tat for so so bloody long..i m afraid tat ii might lose my own self for sumone i m not..

ok la..ppl, i m really sori if i m damn sarcastic at u guys but i really dun mean it...n abt excuses, i may have been making excuses abt not goin out or say tat i dun wan night study coz i wan pray n bla bla bla....but its pretty hard for me to pray in skol when i m dirty and i prefer breakin fast at home coz food has already been prepared..i dun wan waste food..ok tis might be another excuses la...den i have nth to say to defend myself..coz i cannot possibly change ur mind..but i m veri veri sorry coz i keep backing out most of the time..i noe tis has been happenin for many many times..perhaps i cannot bcum the person u wan me to bcum..sori...but i really like if u could understand my situation..ok tis might be another excuses..haiz...nvm den...

ok la..there are like so many stuffs i have written on top..so i will make a move now la..i m turning into a real different person soon...nites guys..sweet dreams...