today was neither a happy day nor a sad day for me..i was juz so frustrated tat i kept my mouth shut...tings were goin so absurd tat i juz shoot out wadever inside my head to the person but tat person got so angrywhich caused me to be in hot soup...i was juz keepin quiet coz i noe tat we both are positve poles and we will rebel so i didnt wan to say anythin but if u keep addin oil to spark a fire, i will definitely be heated up rite...for now, i m juz swallowin everythin...there were like so many hurtful tings tat were being raked up whenever tis argument occurs..tat sum tings really broke my heart..u c ah, everytime tat person scolded me n broke my heart, i will always use super glue to bind the tiny pieces of my heart again...but to tink, everytime i put my heart together n put sum strenght n faith to it, it will definitely be broken up into tiny pieces which really takes a lot of time to put on super glue n to heal...so i had a hard time doin it..but this ppl dun understand it at all..whenever i said smth, ppl will tink tat i m bad..i guess tis is written in my destiny...nobody will juz try to understand wad i really wan...okie enuf of tis. so instead of wastin money on buyin super glue for my heart, i rather it be broken into many pieces, many tiny pieces den i will bind it..now its beta to make it numb, i swear...i have been hearing tings tat really hurt myself a lot and i have no words to describe it..so now, i guess i m juz be strong..ahaha...

okie la..tats all for today..anyway new year will be here soon...n i really wished tat all these stupid tings will end soon...i wan smth tat can really brightened myself up...i dun wan be so disappointed wid life tat made me regret of living in tis world..ahah...okie hasta lavista ppl...sweet dreeams....(=