so finally i m back for a little while..
pretty glad tat everythin ard me is improvin, i hope so..
but i dun noe y recently i really wan give up and ytd i nearly broke down..was nearly to crying but den i really tink i was strong at tat moment tat i told myself, life is neva wat u wan it to be, life is always oppsoite la..u will neva get anythin u wan unless u work hard for it..
a levels stressed me further...its like 80 more days to it and it is juz freakin me out...i hope i can pull myself together and work hard for it..i m so so tired nowadays..
not feelin veri gd these days..dun noe y but really nowadays i m feelin nth..veri numb i muz say..
after wad had happen, trusting others was not tat ez for me..but as u noe sabby is veri gullible and naive, so anyone who is nice to her, she will like them..ahah..
tats her la...u cannot change her..
pretty glad tat everythin ard me is improvin, i hope so..
but i dun noe y recently i really wan give up and ytd i nearly broke down..was nearly to crying but den i really tink i was strong at tat moment tat i told myself, life is neva wat u wan it to be, life is always oppsoite la..u will neva get anythin u wan unless u work hard for it..
a levels stressed me further...its like 80 more days to it and it is juz freakin me out...i hope i can pull myself together and work hard for it..i m so so tired nowadays..
not feelin veri gd these days..dun noe y but really nowadays i m feelin nth..veri numb i muz say..
after wad had happen, trusting others was not tat ez for me..but as u noe sabby is veri gullible and naive, so anyone who is nice to her, she will like them..ahah..
tats her la...u cannot change her..
i tink my life is upside down now..desire everything but den could not reach it..
oki i sound veri emo now but den i have been wanting to just blog everythin out so i will feel a little relieved..
i really wondered, we help ppl not to ask anythin back from them but we wan them to appreciate us,,is tat a lot to ask for??
y are ppl categoring others, labelling them?
y can't they juz look at their refelctions and tink wat they have done and do sum soul seraching..
den i asked myself, wad is my ambition??wad do i c myself doin 10 yrs down e road??
my vision and goals still seems to b veri blur and i really dun noe wad i wan..veri fickle minded..
i juz realised tat i have a huge responsibilty...i have 2 younger sisters...my parents are not goona be wid me forever,after a while i have to take their responsibilty and take care of the 2 of them..
i got to do well so i can give them a brighter future..tinkin of my parents leavin my side really made me so sad la..i really dun wan them leavin me but one day, everyone has to go rite..isnt tat the cycle of life?? i rather goin first den see them leavin me one by one..it gonna tear me into pieces..damn i really wondered y m i tinking abt all tis...but one day, it might happen so i muz be prepared for it..
after so many tings have happened, sabrina is really really veri disapppointed...y?? i might have done smth bad tat caused me to be hurt now..sumtimes, i tink being hurt is juz to let u noe tat tings r veri bad n u need to make it rite...but being hurt, it is juz not emotionally painful but mentally too...i guess tis is wad written in my destiny..but den i really hope tat if anythin bad goona happen, pls make it happen to me..my parents are too old to suffer and my sisters are still young..perhaps after goin thru tat, i will be much more strong and resilient..i m not tryin to show tat i m so filial but u wun wan ur loved ones to be hurt...it juz made u more frustrated..oki sabby is becumin too emo now..
where is e sabrina who laughed a lot and make ppl laughed at the funny antics she made??
i guess everyone has 2 sides...its like facade..no one would show their sorrows but they will drink their sorrows and show a happy front..perhaps everyone is like tat..
