fianlly exams is officially over..but it just did not end on a gd note..despite me tryin to act positive and being calm, that feeling of fear, negativity juz creep in n fill up the void within me..makes me tink of it often n scare the hell out of me..haiz..i really hopei ot the strength to face up to reality n the results next yr..for now, tinkin of it makes me tremble..how i wish i didnt take it n juz live life the way i wan..but in tis society, i believed u got to have sum qualifications to really have a decent life...

hols is here..i was feelin excited abt it but the feeling juz disappeared after a while..its juz like infatuation tat does not last long..now i really have no idea wad to do..really wan to have sum fun outside but my mind juz said no..its juz a different feelin afterall...

findin for job can be difficult huh...ahah..i neeed to work man..i dun wan to be cooped up at home..but tats wad i usually do..like wad ash said, autolock myself..ahha..it juz hit the nail on my head la..i do tat often..juz isolate myself n be myself..ahah..gdness tat souns so emo rite..ahah

oki tats all for today..for now, i m addicted to forensic heroes, on the first beat, cruel temptation n many more..will be back soon wid more behind the scenes of sabby's life....

ciaoz...(=